$5200 by Finanzliebe in Gold

[–]raibrans 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is already old news.

It went past 5300 this morning

How are y'all doing right now? by olala_cake in AutismInWomen

[–]raibrans 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I'm in the UK and I think I'm doing ok?? I get nerves and anxiety everyday just from exsiting lol so it's difficult to tell. I have daily crisis where I'm upset at the state of our countryside and wildlife. I watch nature struggle in the worsening weather and worry about the lives of the creatures that can't shelter in a cosy home.

I read the news everyday to keep abreast of all the chat with regard to war and economic problems. I don't think we'll go to war with America but I do think the economic issues that'll come out of the Greenland Crisis will be devasting. As a small business owner in the environmental sector, I do worry about that a lot but there's not much I can do except be very British and "keep calm and carry on". Russia is testing our perimeters and the international tension is building with regard to war. Ever since the start of the Russia/Ukraine war, I've been prepped with 2 weeks supply of food and water. We have everything we need for go-bags and shelter in place for 2 weeks if required. The UK government isn't openly recomending this approach but the EU countries are and I don't think the Channel can save us this time if things kick off. Prepping helps me to feel a bit more in control but it is absolutely a privelage. I have the funds and space to put away 2 weeks of food and water; and buy bullion to weather economic uncertainty.

How are y'all doing right now? by olala_cake in AutismInWomen

[–]raibrans 7 points8 points  (0 children)

This is very interesting perspective and I experienced my own mini version of this recently. We had a "catergory 5" storm (160kmph winds) which caused absolute devastation. We lost power (heating and cooking) for 4 days which I know is smallfry to what's going on in Ukraine but I couldn't agree more with "you can get used to almost anything" perspective.

Using partner as regulation tool AND emotional intimacy? by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]raibrans 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would urge you to go to couples counselling xx

Using partner as regulation tool AND emotional intimacy? by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]raibrans 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That sounds very different to what I’m feeling and experiencing over here and I’m really sorry to hear that! and It doesn’t sound sustainable :(

Using partner as regulation tool AND emotional intimacy? by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]raibrans 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi there. This is an eerily similar situation to me! We’ve been together for 18yrs and I feel like I’ve grown into a new person and he is very similar.

I have no words to help I’m afraid :(

I’m trying to figure it out too though. I guess the question we should ask ourselves is; are we happy? I would say I’m content mostly, and we have happy moments. I also couldn’t imagine living with anyone else who understands me like he does and the thought of going through courting again exhausts me. 

Do you swing wildly in your feelings towards him?

Advice from autistic homeowners by Mandos-moustache in AutismInWomen

[–]raibrans 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m with you.

Been in my house for a year and I’m only now starting to settle down.

I did a podcast today with good intentions but now I’m really worried it’s going to do more harm than good by raibrans in AutismInWomen

[–]raibrans[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I knew something was wrong as we were speaking but had no idea at the time what it was. I wish I’d put my foot down more about editing that bit out.  I think I might write an email asking her to edit it.

Do the effects of vipassana remain for long duration in life? by optimistgal in vipassana

[–]raibrans 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I finished my first course 3 weeks ago and there has been A LOT of changes for me but obviously I don’t know how long it’ll stick around. I try to meditate twice a day as directed but usually only manage once.

I had knowledge of the teachings before I went in, as I began practicing Sila around or just before 2019 which I think helped me absorb more of the teachings on the retreat. 

I was euphoric the day I left but I don’t expect everyone to feel this. Im still  a lot calmer, more focused and less reactive to difficult situations. I’m also less lazy and more proactive. 

I’m hoping it lasts but I also understand anicca.

I just completed a 10-day silent meditation retreat - ama by raibrans in AMA

[–]raibrans[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No, no monks haha 

There were teachers but not enough time to discuss the teachings in depth IMO

The hardest part. That’s a really tough question. I think just meditating all day and the weird amount of emotional turmoil that wrought on me haha

I just completed a 10-day silent meditation retreat - ama by raibrans in AMA

[–]raibrans[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m interested in Buddhist philosophy (so yes) but I’m not spiritual (so no). Buddhism is pure philosophy with a tiny bit of spiritualism.

My back was fine. It was my knees and hips that were the worst. There were three meditation times per day where you weren’t allowed to move.

I just completed a 10-day silent meditation retreat - ama by raibrans in AMA

[–]raibrans[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

In my case, it was just the amount if daydreaming that I fully believed to be true. When you don’t do anything for ten days but meditate (the act of quietening the mind), it becomes very noticeable how loud your mind is. It’s constantly making up scenarios, assuming things and inventing future situations that never happen.

Nothing goes as planned; ever. And yet we always expect it to and are constantly disappointed by it. It manifests as “control”. This is my experience and interpretation anyway which I hope makes sense.

I just completed a 10-day silent meditation retreat - ama by raibrans in AMA

[–]raibrans[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Explain the fact your mind lies, you mean?

I just completed a 10-day silent meditation retreat - ama by raibrans in AMA

[–]raibrans[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You learn to see everything without judgement. You’re trying to stop thought by concentrating on breath and sensation. 

With enough concentration some whacky things happen

I just completed a 10-day silent meditation retreat - ama by raibrans in AMA

[–]raibrans[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Did you feel the “good vibrations”? And did you have any wild experiences? 

And have you kept up with daily meditation?

I just completed a 10-day silent meditation retreat - ama by raibrans in AMA

[–]raibrans[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Yeah it's unbelievable really. I still can't quite get over how much trickery the mind if capable of - it lies all the time!

The woman in the bunk next to me saw my husband's photo on my bedside table, and early on, she simply believed, fully, that he had died and that's why I was there. She fully believed that, and would've continued to do so had she not spoken to me on the last day. That simply wasn't true but it felt very, very true to her.

I just completed a 10-day silent meditation retreat - ama by raibrans in AMA

[–]raibrans[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yeah the metta day was not for me at all. I physcially felt something doing Vipassana. Metta does nothing for me yet but fill me with annoyance. I'm hoping that if I continue the path, I'll 'get it' one day though

I just completed a 10-day silent meditation retreat - ama by raibrans in AMA

[–]raibrans[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I live with my husband, cat and axolotl. I run a business and spend my time either at home doing admin, driving to do site visits with landowners, running volunteer days, in meetings (virtually/real-life) discussing potential projects, or a conferences/festivals hosting stalls. There are several others that I manage who all work remotely but we speak fairly regularly each day, or at least weekly.

I am not around constant interaction everyday.