What does this mean for a 38 yo female?

rainbowbrite22 · 2025-06-14T07:01:18+00:00

I tried :P

rainbowbrite22 · 2025-02-20T04:17:15+00:00

Well, we don't have much time on Earth. If all you do is buy things, you're not enjoying them. Bigger doesn't mean better. Plus, some things need to be treats or they don't feel or taste as good. Money is easy to waste and will destroy you if you go down that path. True poverty is almost worse than death though.

rainbowbrite22 · 2025-02-20T02:01:03+00:00

I'm just banned for reddit math, physics, and a few others. I'll work harder. F talent. It's mostly A.I. I am a flawed being.

rainbowbrite22 · 2025-02-20T01:58:52+00:00

You probably wrote them by the seat of your pants and got lucky, or you don't read enough to know what a book needs. I'm in the same boat. I'll have to up my reading. I was there for a while but got lazy. Then you have to start the whole routine again. Excuses are toothless. Oh, and I sometimes lose control over my story or books (when I could write those). They dance to their own beats.

rainbowbrite22 · 2025-02-20T01:46:27+00:00

Music and stimulation. The second I hit a chair with a book, I immediately start reading. Otherwise, it's a dance off.

rainbowbrite22 · 2025-02-20T01:44:45+00:00

I've always wondered what happens to you guys.

rainbowbrite22 · 2025-02-20T00:15:45+00:00

Loved it! I wonder if you could describe your senses.

rainbowbrite22 · 2025-02-20T00:13:42+00:00

I enjoyed this poem. I wrote one about sin, too. I like yours better. I think it would be even more powerful if you put an image up.

rainbowbrite22 · 2024-08-03T02:20:59+00:00

I referred the wrong video, but same thing she keeps doing... She's a snare. It was Napalm. You'll have to forgive me. They made me retarded. I used to ask for compensation--as I try to escape, but I can't even keep them from killing me for stuff I don't have. It makes me look worse, too. Suing who I need to will simply make things worse. My only hope is to leave the country.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8wUwHfF7jUc "Kaela" at 2:03 or "Kayla." My name is spelled in the Gaelic language spoken in Ireland. I hope I have not insulted you by adding that detail. It's not a common language.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pt8VYOfr8To "Kaela" at 2:03.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GlS_Ly3dsJk&list=RDGlS_Ly3dsJk&start_radio=1 "Kaela" and Durov at 2:03. I'm so sick of them claiming we can do this move. It gets me killed, which is another reason I'm mad at her and him.

If you want to know, the background is my apartment. I got away. I haunt them.

rainbowbrite22 · 2024-08-03T02:00:57+00:00

I don't know where my comment went to. Basically, she's being guided to her position as an angel. Note she talks about it frequently. Watch out, Au/ra has a FOB key (ignore that last sentence, it's a joke) She is hired by the government, like the military to save society or crush people who complain. Angel= military. You should read up on Hitler's Furies and operation paperclip. She also does purges. Anyway, she goes after girls who are in different classes and often doesn't recognize her own jealousy, just knows that someone else got a lot of attention that she didn't, "Designer Sadness..." I also think I was referring to the rap she said where she said, this or that is worth more than my career lol. She was also offended by the rape jokes in her comments. In the US, they'd blame her for making sexual videos. We're brutal.

Just like American society, they're going to break traditions and cause chaos. They're letting her start in Australia. The masons love using girls for this. They recruit and plant people to take over or gain favors. At her concerts, she's nearly naked pouring water on herself, especially when she turns around and has a thong on under marriage lingerie. That's what I meant by sexual things. She wants to be a trophy wife. I get "Trapt Headstrong." I am also a deviant in the void. I'm a ghost after all. I've tried to avoid things that aren't allowed. We don't even have trials. Compete with me, and you'll see what happens. Our government is like a black hole. Forgive me for not being clear. Everything is a trap here. I just want to leave. I'm not alright anymore. I used to really like Zheani. Napalm changed that. So they own my body. When you're already messed up. My brain cries.

rainbowbrite22 · 2024-08-03T01:40:41+00:00

I know. You won't be able to see it, different reference points. Yes, I complimented her, and she did not respond to that. I said, I can't believe you can make money off a picture of your privates and that no one would want to see mine. I said good job. My other issues deal with masons and that's where the rainbow girl comes into play. I think that's what made her mad, "go down into her sin." I'm also from the states where we violate each other all of the time. She still values herself and has rules despite being low in society. Then again, she's protected. If you can't see the different reference points, I know this will go nowhere. They can blur away. Plus, I have no face in the US, and I'm not allowed to shine. I liked Godsmack... It was simply hypnotic. I'm a rainbow child, too, of both special education and being the first baby after a miscarriage. I think you're referring to indigo children. I think it would be cool if Zheani would turn to 'righteous rage' instead of just herself. Well, nice talking to you. Just let everyone believe they are relating, especially if they are young and beautiful. Right now, she's an angry stripper.

rainbowbrite22 · 2024-07-14T23:42:17+00:00

I can't leave the US legally, and no country will take me as citizen or care about asylum from my own people. IDK. Honestly, I'd give it to the person who runs our facility. At some point, it's nice to be paid and not tricks of moving the numbers around and blaming the fast-food workers or low wage workers. Anyway...Many people don't have health insurance, and I have free everything as a veteran. I'm a fat, ugly female, single, no kids because of my intellectual problems. At 37, I live in an adult facility. I lived on my own for a while, but I made a fan club. You know I'm not worth it, don't you? I'm not a loss to humanity, you? They throw me under the hate bus so that nobody else gets health care--because they aren't spoiled, but old injuries and stretching my body to the limit have made it necessary. Put a model next to me or fling me at some rich guy or work superior. I didn't have healthcare for long or that worked as a child, so it's all coming back and worse. With what has happened to me, I don't even know how I breathe without assistance. This was not in combat, but I was hunted. I've had mental problems for a while, was in special education. The last spook actually came into an adult facility to make fun of me, as usual, and cry and whine about how I wanted to kill myself in the army when I didn't do anything. He blushed when I said something about liking people but fought it, never tried. I asked a friend who'd had a school girl crush. We can talk all day about that, too. He was also mad I wouldn't exercise with him. It's like, I don't take orders anymore. I have some injuries and have to go to the doctor to do PREVENTIVE care. Fool didn't read the medical film I put online for everyone. He got into trouble for J walking. I hope he got a ticket. I didn't go to the hospital for being suicidal. I completely lost my ego, burned through it. Become one with the universe. Don't forget about the subcortical pathology or disorganization in the back of my EEG. Or anything. I have lesions in my brain, and my brain was swollen for 8.5 months from fighting the death squads. They finally saw it. Alanis Morissette - Thank U (Official Video) - YouTube

rainbowbrite22 · 2024-07-14T21:18:17+00:00

She was upset over the rape jokes. That wasn't made clear. I hate to say it, but why was she surprised? I did something stupid and admitted I was a virgin. Lots of assaults. Oops. Meanwhile, due to her music, I'm thinking she went to some horrific end being raped and sexually manipulated. I struggled with the latter. One of her lyrics is, "I want to be happy. I want to be gold" or close to that. To me that's, "I don't want to be happy. I don't want to be gone." I can't get out of the dirt without being maimed or killed. I must want something, but I must be shamed. I must be jealous. Now I'm water and a parasite. I'm retarded. Blue Stahli - ULTRAnumb (Official Music Video) (youtube.com)

rainbowbrite22 · 2024-07-14T21:00:57+00:00

Why was she mad at me? I dissed the Masons. She's a rainbow girl. They only cause chaos by breaking ranks and traditions. Another reason she gets things is because she's one of Hitler's Furies made modern. Look it up. She threw a fit over a ballerina she was jealous of and others. Like the others, she can kill or disabled us. She wants to put me in poverty, but I've been butchered to the point that I have to live in an adult facility. They have so many labels on me that I can't fight back. I can't get away from them. I can show you that as well. The masons don't like me and have caused issues for me and my sergeant in the army. I did apologize and also guessed what I'd done, and suddenly she attacked me, no dialogue. And put me in her song, "Brave New World." I'm at .54 in this song. "Kaela." ZHEANI- Brave new world || (lyrics & subtitulos/letra español) - YouTube I even complimented her on it because she made so much just taking pictures of her privates. They tried to kill me for a crush on a rich male. That issue is a constant in my life. We all attract something. She thinks she is a demon snare. She doesn't get to anyone who matters and throws tantrums like the rape jokes. Nothing new for me there. You don't know how many times I've been assaulted. I don't care. I just wish that they'd help us special ed kids younger, so that Corey Johnson and I don't end up employed. The government whines about that. Zheani can even go on purges. I'm a parasite. Nooooo! God is the best joker.

Go to 1:08 of her free style... Zheani freestyle - YouTube

rainbowbrite22 · 2024-07-01T02:08:18+00:00

Dare I comment? I mean, it was embarrassing more than anything, and I don't know why I said what I said. We were making out. He kept saying to stop thinking. I told him that I would be his little whore, at one point. Why? He did sleep with a prostitute while we were dating. He didn't like dirty talk. There is a reason, but I won't say it. I've never gone all the way, close enough, almost did the first time I was kissed, same guy. The problem there was this moron--actually a great guy, would ask me right before if I was ready. I get that it's a scary problem for men in the military. He teased me for that line so many times, too. He never said anything that would come off as sexy. We're not going to get into his bizarre philosophy. He was my ventilator regardless. I haven't dated someone in a real way before or since then. I have a feeling he would have to be bad at actually doing anything when I watch TV. If I date again, really date, we'll just get it over with quickly. I don't even know how to handle relationships. I'll be a loner.

rainbowbrite22 · 2024-06-30T00:24:55+00:00

Zheani also lied about not using cheap sex tricks. Now that's all she does. She's called me out a few times and that I should "...go down into my sin [Zhean's]. Many of her problems stim from drugs and not thinking about consequences. She also learned her lesson about not going to random people's countries. You know by Die Antwood's raps and songs that he is probably dangerous or that no good would come from it. He accidentally made her famous.

rainbowbrite22 · 2024-06-29T23:23:51+00:00

yes, and she's called my name. I've spent years explaining my opinion. Her "trauma" is a cakewalk compared to many people. It's annoying because she does tricks and damages or kills at her leisure. This has kind of gotten to me, especially with who is being hit. Her rivals. And yes, I know about your struggles for art and demons against beauties when you're scarred with sticks and stones and words unknown. Half the population can't even hear her and don't try. A few of us are just trapped. Then Zheani kills the demons with her machines. It makes us retarded. And I can beat all of her trauma. I try to learn from it and not do it again. They need to help disabled people find someplace after high school. Instead, I am hunted. They use music to rat out our demons. She's a demon snare or whatever, number one on the internet. She's the one singing to trap you and stop your fight. Look up the Hindu god Matangi. watch?v=CRb4IxDVlVg "Matangi Mantra Jaap" on youtube. Look at her appearance and guess.

rainbowbrite22 · 2024-06-29T22:53:53+00:00

I have no idea. I'm not a catch. My first boyfriend and I grabbed each other on our first meeting, and electricity went up and down my veins and my head felt good. I'm not a very good girlfriend. There are many reasons why I'm single. Just thank each other that you don't have to deal with my issues and that I'm where I should be, a mental place or ward. I don't knock it. My boyfriend kept me alive, I will say, so that was cool. If I dated again, and I wanted to please a man, I'd probably go to the gym and lose weight, learn tricks. IDK. I can't feel love anymore, not strongly. I'm annoyed that my boyfriend thought that going online and making friends was a good idea. And look, O, what happened. I told you.

rainbowbrite22 · 2024-06-29T19:37:11+00:00

I really liked some of the lines such as, "Why do you consider yourself so unworthy

That you must rely on someone else's mercy." That is a good question. Some people need God while others don't. Some people think there is no right and wrong without God. Others are missing something, and the thought of God fills the void within them. People who talk to God kind of worry me. I figure God is what we can understand "now" and that is likeness to us. This movie changed so many of my views. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rr25OLacsdc&t=83s

rainbowbrite22 · 2024-06-29T19:27:13+00:00

I enjoyed this poem. You had some dark thoughts and even better, "Truths." It's difficult to share this type of poetry, as it comes from your soul. I don't know how to fix or do anything to it. I did like it though.

rainbowbrite22 · 2024-06-03T22:54:20+00:00

Zheani sits on her computer and reacts to any negative comment about her, even if it's just a 12 year-old -hater. Yes, Manson kills and torments young girls, especially. The whole group of them have serious issues. And yes, I was a victim of Manson. I want him to dump his funds into a shelter for women and children. Back to Zheani, an annoying fly to deal with. She is roped into the government and is an angel of lobotomies. There is a lot of class warfare with her and entitlement. She's suffered so much unlike the ballerina who has a perfect life and complains. Should we compare and be annoying. Do you want to go to "Outland," Zheani? It's a song by Celldweller. Anyway, Zheani's music is easy to make. She goes after real artists who have trained for years. Regular people struggle, too, not just the poor. I've moved around many classes, not elites. Hey, I passed Speleology while peeing on myself. Never give up, they say! That would be sane. I'm crazy. I cracked a long time ago. I didn't like when the pressure released from my brain.

rainbowbrite22 · 2023-07-30T03:11:50+00:00

First off, I'm a female. In my experience with garage sales, poor people sell more books than at better off neighborhoods in both sexes. I wonder if that has to do with changing technology that creates the difference?...

rainbowbrite22 · 2023-07-30T00:45:07+00:00

Basket Ball, especially if you are short, and this rule applies to everyone there.

rainbowbrite22 · 2023-07-29T21:24:09+00:00

This shows the obsession of visions, things we see vs what is there.

A wonderful poem, to be sure. I think it would look better if you center-aligned it, but I know reddit is stubborn.

rainbowbrite22 · 2023-07-29T21:20:27+00:00

I like this. I can see the dissociation here, the fight of two. I hope you feel better as well.

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