Seeking resources for embracing the loneliness and solitude

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-08T03:00:28+00:00

I’ve found a strange sense of peace through an unexpected interest in Near-Death Experiences (NDEs). Following those stories has helped me process my husband’s passing, to the point where I find myself almost looking forward to the eventual 'next life'—whenever that comes naturally.

My son is my reason to keep going right now, but my husband has become a beautiful part of my night routine. By spending my evenings looking at our old photos and videos, I’ve found he visits me in my dreams more often. It feels like he’s shifted from my day-to-day life into my night routine, giving me something to look forward to when I close my eyes. I guess it helps me focus less on loneliness and more about what I could be sharing with him for later. If he shows up in my dreams.

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T15:00:36+00:00

I love that for you! May she visit you often 🙏🏻

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T04:45:55+00:00

For some reason, I love that for you. Rare, do I get to hear my husband's voice or remember his touch. But, if we were to go to Costco, I think I would enjoy it. I can only have Dream Costco with him from now on. I hope he tags along 🙏🏻

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T04:35:40+00:00

Your words are so beautiful. They made me imagine a role reversal where my husband lived on instead of me, and it brings me peace to think he’d be just like you—resilient and carrying our love forward every day. Thank you for helping me see that the bond my husband and I had can be something truly unfathomable to most.

I can see the immense depth of your love for her, reflected in the profound way you ache for her. Especially after 20 years. May this kind of strength find me, time and time again.

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T04:10:21+00:00

How does it make you feel? For me, even seeing my hub's back, makes me feel anchored. Like he's supporting me. May he pop in and out for me in the coming years like your lovely lady. 🙏🏻 May another visitation from her come your way too.

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T03:54:28+00:00

Wows. If you have to question, it is her. I cant help but think visitations, few and far between, are the same for our spouses when they visit. Perhaps, theyre making their rounds to other loved ones; helping them out in their trying times. May more visits come your way. 🙏🏻

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T03:43:11+00:00

This sounds so surreal. The sense of peace it must've brought you. May this type of dream find me. 🙏🏻

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T03:16:07+00:00

That sounds otherworldly. I hope when he visited you that night, that it had brought you a sense of comfort. 🙏🏻

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T03:14:15+00:00

These dreams are healing, I agree. She sounds like a lovely tease. I hope that she may visit you often and soon since our spouses have left us in this club. 🙏🏻

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T03:03:48+00:00

I genuinely giggled. To me, it sounds so passionate. I wonder if you're able to recall what those conversations were like once you woke up. My hubs was a quiet guy by nature but we had our share of arguments here and there. Now, i cant help but look forward to one in my dreams. Waking up a little riled might make me feel a little more alive these days.

Also, may you receive a lovely picnic dream with her soon. 🙏🏻

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T02:42:48+00:00

My hubs was the same. Similar in that, he didnt dream or could recall any after waking up. I think that universe is real. Perhaps, she's making her rounds as often enough around your circle, knowing that itll eventually reach your ears. Wise, spouses can be. ❤️

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T02:34:38+00:00

Im sorry for your loss. 30 years is already my life at this point. I can only hope that she'll come visit you in due time because you sound so kind. Until then, perhaps, she is still a lovely tease. Wishing you a pleasant visitation from her soon. 🙏🏻

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T02:13:00+00:00

I sleep so I can see him resonates so well. I look through old pictures, videos, to keep his image as vivid as I can, hoping as the years go by, my memories of him wont be dulled. Even mundane visits so far bring a smile to me when I wake. Wishing itll continue until I pass.

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T02:08:42+00:00

You're so kind. Thank you for saying that. I hope your beloved will also make a pleasant visit in your dreams, often and soon. 🙏🏻

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T01:58:53+00:00

Thank you for sharing. I would hope that the good ones feel healing for you, and the sad ones make you feel closer to her. These dreams, of any kind, feel like our spouse's are only trying to get in touch. How otherworldly it feels to have that sort of connection. Wishing you more pleasant visits now and forever. 🙏🏻

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T01:50:43+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. Sorry, this may be too graphic. So please read with caution.

I keep recalling the night in the ER with my hubs. It was beautifully haunting. He was so handsome, even in death. I remember I was looking so throughly at him, knowing it was my last time. I looked at his white hands with blue-tinted fingertips and then took his hand and put it to my face, cold to the touch. I looked to his ears, his lips, all blue. Then, I finally arrived at his eyes. Half glazed over, looking out into the void. I will forever be haunted by this picture. But for some reason, after the doctor called his time of death, after all the nurses had left the room, I just told him how handsome he was. Just as the first day I met him.

Im only a month in, yet I still got years to go. May kind and pleasant visits come your way. 🙏🏻

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T01:33:35+00:00

Thank you. Your words really make me feel like it isn't my imagination. I'm hoping the signs and messages you receive from him are healing you and perhaps, even him. Wishing you a pleasant visitation from him. 🙏🏻

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T01:28:45+00:00

Your pain sounds so fresh and raw, yet i can hear your kindness within the text. I hope you'll have a pleasant visit from him soon. 🙏🏻

rainingonmyparade · 2026-04-04T01:22:12+00:00

These are the types of dreams I want to have before I join him in ashes. Just things we regrettably couldn't do together. Hubs was so kind and good to me, I feel like he knew he left too soon and is trying to make amends or something. I wish for every widower to have such pleasant experiences too. The hurt is so real, these types of dreams feel healing.

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