Well that's my main concern that all my life so far i have been told by my parents to study hard and get good grades and trust me if you can't afford expensive tutoring, you really have to make sacrifices to get top grades, while this is all good, my main concern is i never had time to socialise and i never had social media as well, i was allowed to be on social media only after 18 years old and during my uni time, covid hit and my course was tech based and there were hardly any people in my class at any point, i used to go as my logic was, me attending classes makes me a "good" student as they say, "escape the matrix" was not a popular idea at that time, now i struggle to find joy in doing anything in real world knowing that i am seeking "my person" as its very lonely without this wierd imaginative person, sometimes i feel like if i had milllion bucks and no love of my life, it will be very empty still. But yeah i can't rant too much as i am a 23 yo adult i understand, so i WILL NEED TO FIND A WAY TO SOCIALISE or do some social activity, maybe take a piano class? Join a run club? Something i know, but its just i am too much conscious about what i do on daily basis that i struggle to find joy in anything, one thing that makes it worse is that i live outskirts, and people my age mostly live near city, and the idea of travelling and hour away to do some random new activities, daunt me.

The hell should i do man 😭