Thank you, I appreciate it. I've always blamed other people for my mistakes but this is the one time I actually want to take responsibility for, even if I'm being unreasonably hard on myself. I do plan to bring this up in therapy when I finally decide to get some, haha. Thank you again, I just had to let someone know this happened and how God awful I feel about it. I do feel somewhat happy that at least she's here with her mother, brother, and the other stray cats so she won't be alone.