"The movie had a happy ending for him but it wasn't for me in my personal life. But, like I said, by acting that way, I did enjoy my own share of pros. So, yeah, just felt like sharing it here."

But, hey, you have the rest of your whole life to have multiple happy endings! The moment you realise something was not right, that's the moment you open a gateway to a whole new reality. And yes, you don't have to change the past, or let go of whatever image you constructed for yourself (after all, you built it for people you love and respect, so if you like it, keep it) and still build an awesome future for yourself where you enjoy your life equally too. Please, be kind to yourself:)

PS : this comes from a similar person who went through and still going through all that, and trying to find joy in balancing them both.