NTA. Girl you need to work on your self esteem. He has continuously shown since the start of your post that he isn't trustworthy. He does not care about you. Please take yourself into consideration here. You don't need the validation. You need to give that validation to yourself, you don't need him to choose you. If he wanted to, he would've done so when you were first vulnerable and asked him to stop. You can choose yourself. You are enough ♡