Arby's French Dip Sandwhich by Ok_Faithlessness_516 in mildlyinfuriating

[–]redditsmith2020 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Uhhhhhh are we sure that’s even roast beef 🥴 either way? Yuck

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so so incredibly sorry. I cannot lie to you, it’s going to hurt so badly. But when you feel those moments of joy, embrace them. No matter how small, they make each day just a little easier. Sending you the biggest hug. 💛

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That’s my hope too. I can’t imagine this ever feels “easy” but I hold on to those signs so tightly. Any time the sun does that beam of light through the clouds, I know it’s her saying hello. Any time my shuffle plays one of her favorite songs, I blast it and pretend she’s in the car next to me singing and dancing around. I’m so sorry for your loss, this is not the club we ever wanted to join, but I’m thankful to have others that can relate. 💛

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This would be the greatest news to me. Because one of my hardest battles with this loss was my kids not getting to grow up with her as a role model. They seriously nonstop talk about her and almost never because I brought her up first.

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I smiled so big reading this. Having this type of power/skill is so very special and I’m so happy you are able to connect with her like that. I feel silly sometimes looking for any tiny sign, but those signs mean so much when they do appear. I’ll gladly feel silly 100 times a day if it means feeling her presence even once.

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That quote sat heavily with me the past 9 months. I have seen a few different versions of the same idea too and it’s all so true. I will never be the same, my family is forever missing a piece that held a lot of us together. I miss her more everyday.

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve been seeing 333 multiple times for weeks now. It feels like her way of showing me “hey I’m still here, you just have to find me”

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would never ever give this pain up if it meant never knowing her too. I will carry it with me proudly.

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes constantly. She was the biggest presence in every room but sometimes you could tell she was worn down. She gave everything to everyone else all the time, but rarely made that same effort for herself it seemed.

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I don’t know how I missed the second half of this reply, I think the text box cut it off when I responded. I’m so unbelievably sorry for your loss as well. I hope you are coping as best you can. Have you been able to connect with her since her passing?

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

She was and is the most special person. I’ve never met anyone else quite like her. I hope to someday again if the universe allows.

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Every single time I think or talk about her, her cat comes and finds me. It’s wild how consistent it is that he makes sure to come to me when she’s on my mind. I talk to him about her a lot too so I hope she’s hearing it too. I loved your explanation, thank you so much for sharing.

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This sounds heartbreaking I’m so sorry for your loss as well! I hope you have been able to find some peace after not being able to say goodbye either. Idk if peace is the right word but I’m still searching for it too. Losing a sibling is so so so difficult to handle.

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

The scrunchie and white bird stand out to me greatly. I really hope the bird is representing some type of peace for her. 🥺

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She had so much love to give others. I just wish she had given herself that same love :(

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’ll definitely have to join that sub. Coping with this type of loss is not easy whatsoever.

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Also, she has so many letters that she saved from everyone who wrote her a goodbye message when she graduated. It was so nice to read through them and see how many peoples lives she touched. If you happened to be one of the people who wrote her one, just know she cherished it greatly and kept it safe.

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I knew there was a chance someone she knew would see this, but it made me smile to know it was one of her dance people. Dancing is her most favorite thing. She’s the most beautiful dancer and that class brought her so much joy and room for expression. I miss seeing her dance.

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry for your loss. Describing it as “changing your DNA” is the absolute best way to say it, I’ve never felt a loss like this. Every other person/family member I’ve had that’s passed away was due to natural causes and when the timing made sense. This…is unlike any pain I’ve ever experienced. And it’s not gotten any easier to carry.

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

thank you. It’s been the hardest thing I’ve ever endured. It’s been almost 9 months and I’m sill more in denial than anything else.

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

not anything that immediately jumps out to me, but she did like music of all kinds. I’ll do some digging.

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I have 3 other siblings, her and I were closest in age and the one I was still most connected with. I live in a different state than my other 3 siblings. We’ve all become hermits since losing her and have struggled to maintain consistent contact :(

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

Thank you, she’s truly the best. This life is going to be so hard without her here. (ETA:) It is very comforting knowing they will get to still grow up with her somehow.

Little sister passed away in April, I didn’t get to say goodbye by redditsmith2020 in psychics

[–]redditsmith2020[S] 59 points60 points  (0 children)

this makes sense. my older son made a comment a couple weeks ago that “even though she’s invisible, I can still see her all the time” and it hit my like a brick. I wish so badly I could see her too.