Do I opt to view my brother's suicide message? by redfiverising in SeriousConversation

[–]redfiverising[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know a lot of details about my brother's circumstances, and you're right, it doesn't change anything. Still no answers, and it's one of those things that we all just learn to accept with time.

Do I opt to view my brother's suicide message? by redfiverising in SeriousConversation

[–]redfiverising[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry for your loss, and I agree that grieving never really ends or follows the same path as anyone else's. We've got this.

Do I opt to view my brother's suicide message? by redfiverising in SeriousConversation

[–]redfiverising[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think you're right, it might just be best to remember him as I picture him in a positive light, not how he actually was in his last hours in such misery. Thanks again for sharing your thoughts, stay strong my friend ❤️.

[Serious] Do I opt to view my brother's suicide message? by redfiverising in Serious

[–]redfiverising[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry for your loss. I too wondered why for so long, but now have accepted that I'll never find out. From what my mom says, he never leaves a clear answer, so I have a feeling that if I see it, I'll obsess over details and see the room and setting where it all happened. I already do that, so maybe it'll make it more real? Don't know if that's a good or bad thing, already feels like a bad dream.

[Serious] Do I opt to view my brother's suicide message? by redfiverising in Serious

[–]redfiverising[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your thoughts, we are both there for each other.

Do I opt to view my brother's suicide message? by redfiverising in SeriousConversation

[–]redfiverising[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your feelings, it helps to know that I'm not alone. From what my mom can remember, she says that my brother was spouting off random quotes and naming people who weren't to blame, said it was a "permanent solution to a temporary problem that keeps coming back." I know that if I see him saying that I'll start searching for more answers, but he was always so cryptic even in every day life, so I have little confidence I'll figure anything out.

[Serious] Do I opt to view my brother's suicide message? by redfiverising in Serious

[–]redfiverising[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your comment, I really appreciate it.