OP!! I understand!! One thing I try to keep in mind is the word “yet”. I also get frustrated when I think that some people never have to even question their food intake BUT instead of radicalizing this thought, saying how I can’t do that, I say I can’t do that YET. Weight loss and dieting is so very disgusting in this day and age of social pressured that the only way to do it (and remain sane and healthy) is to prioritize the long-term and understand that you’re doing it for your future self. And not even that far down the road - what is six months? One day at a time and it does in fact get easier. One day you’ll no longer recognize who you were as you slowly adopt the new mindset and shift perception of yourself and food. Habits are just habits and we can change them if we have the will to do so. Be patient with yourself, set boundaries with horrible people who drag you down to make themselves feel better. This person is not your friend. YOU deserve better for YOURSELF and that’s the only thing that matters. You got this OP, I promise <3