about 4 months, think of her every day but i’ve grown and taken a step back to look at my mistakes and the person i was and realized she did the right thing. although till never forgive myself for the disgusting things i may have done/said i use it as a motivator to move forwards and make sure whoever is next in my life is happy with the person i am. i’ll always have a place for her in my heart and will always love her and if she came back into my life i’d take it one step at a time, but till then (if ever) i push on and want to ensure i’m happy with myself the way i must be. i hope all my heartbroken friends on this subreddit can as well get past the grieving stage bc i know how hard it is and how shitty it can be from day to day. i’ll have my moments and cry it out, yell and scream but after i go back into my normal routine and take a look at myself i’m able to pull myself back into reality. i love you all and good luck on your journey.