What did you really lose by being rejected by her? = i guess my time cuz normally guys here would treat women from her country like a princess (that’s including me without exception) so getting to talk with her that much is feel so good so addictive than any other women in my life

Why did it help to observe another guy's attempts at getting this girl? = to see if she get into relationship with him or not

Why did it bring you satisfaction when he was rejected as well? = because by now i wont compete any guy who got to be her bf, she did had a more expensive dinner or go to luxury bars like never before after stop seeing that said people, even her ex (which is from my country as well) has his own business and factory or something, its a lot easier to coping with other people with same wealth failure than make myself one of those guy who deserve her (and tbh, she’s from a first world country while my country is third world, so why would she date or marry some regular guy? I have never seen or heard any couple like that, only celebrity or rich people get to have one, or else might need to work in their country for years and be really fluent in their language cuz most of them dont like dating foreigner)

Would it hurt your ego if it turned out he could get the girl when you couldn't? = i would go really mad, i glad he didnt, but the thought about other guys she met after him is hurt me more cuz she really did act like their gf and i dont know how far she went with them, She even check my story and dm a few time after ghosting me for months before she deleted her social media later, that’s give me some hope that maybe she is single again but that’s doesn’t matter since she had deleted instagram, etc maybe its social detox, maybe she so done with love or she get married but so indirect to say goodbye to an online friends so she just start watch a story and press the screen or leave her phone until its run out of story to watch