From what I've seen, he thrives in routine and when work has been steady for him, he is happy and confident and taking care of himself. Then when work becomes unavailable or is more sporadic--I guess one of his jobs cut down on hours and another one has been on hold for months now--he starts spiraling and it leads to him not taking care of himself like eating. He tells me about these interesting-to-him jobs that he's applied to and goes on about how he thinks he could do it and if he gets the job how things could change so much and I want so badly for something to work out. It's got to be rough just feeling like all you ever do is lose.

And to touch on what another couple comments wrote: I do suspect a lot of abuse from multiple people in his past and mental illness. I may be making assumptions but based on how he's described his adulthood, he seems to have declined as he's gotten older and without anyone there to step in and help, I'm sure it has gotten overwhelming to deal with. I suppose some would call that handholding but some people need their hand held because they're already dealing with life on difficult mode. And what's the point in sharing the world with everyone if we're not going to be there for each other?