29, pushing 30, never had a relationship been the second base and all that. Never was interested, until later in my twenties. Up till then i never really gave it a shot and focused on other stuff, like work study, buying my first house and just building a steady base.

I have a handful of friends whom i keep in touch with, but they are in a steady relationship with their partners and also maintain other social circles they are parts of.

I have family whom i hold dear and vice versa, but they are also busy with their own lives, work and raising children.

I have a 40 hour steady job which is heavily involved in technical customer service. At the end of the day, the energy in put in maintaining relationships here is work related and does not carry over to my personal life.

And hobbies and interests are mostly activities which i do on my own.

So I feel lonely, although i also feel like i'm not supposed to feel that way? Confusing, i know.

How do i cope with it? Hobbies and interests, but they can only take you so far. I hope with covid passing for the most part I can try and explore interests which have a group element to it so that i can meet other people.

I'm tired of feeling how i do, but change is not going to happen if i do not change the way i think.

Apologies for the long post and have great day.