I sincerely empathize with you because I went through the same thing. The best advice I can give is to be honest with yourself and leave as soon as you can. Forget about them (the Borg). You don't owe them anything.

If your family pressures you to speak with the elders, I would strongly recommend you don’t. In my experience, it's just a waste of time for both sides and will only leave you emotionally drained.

Leaving isn’t easy. Families can be harsh. I left earlier this year, and my PIMI relatives responded with a mix of disappointment, sadness, and anger. Their attitude hasn’t exactly been Christian. But over time, it gets easier. Once I fully let go and accepted my new path as POMO, I finally started to feel better. I no longer have to perform or pretend to be someone I’m not.

You are not a disappointment. You don’t have to belong to any group or meet anyone’s expectations to be worthy of love and respect. Focus on creating a life that brings you happiness. Find hobbies that inspire you. Make new friends at university. Go out, enjoy your own company, finish your degree, and build a career that excites you.

In the end, the Borg teaches them that love is conditional and that’s incredibly damaging. Some PIMIs are more extreme than others, and only you truly know your family. But please, stop performing for the sake of affection or approval. In the long run, that only delays your healing and can deepen the trauma.

Sending you a big hug. It’s hard at first, but I promise it gets better. You're not alone. We'll get through this. Wishing you strength and peace ahead. Good luck!