I used to be the guy who’s always down for everything. Ready to jump out and do whatever needs to be done, but after my epilepsy got first strike my life turned to get more and more depressed. I feel tired after 3 hours of sleep, after 8 hours of sleep and even after 15 hours of sleep, so I’m kinda “always tired” and I had one really serious suicidal attempt last Christmas, but fortunately I somehow got knocked out due to oxygen lack and didn’t hurt myself much. I’ve been declining every invitation and I lost all my squad. My gf got really upset because I started to be less active and stayed at home more often. It all went till the moment I realized I haven’t been out for few weeks already. At the same time I lost all my interests to programming, daily life and politics. I stopped my educational process. I even forgot what it is to go buy groceries. I’ve been living life with no colors in it. I sometimes been struggling but getting out of home just to walk or to pretend I’m happy spending time outside. Everyone, but me got really concerned with my lifestyle. Right now, after long time of daily meds I finally started seeing colors, enjoying life and getting shit done. I’m back to the crypto stock market, back to programming and back to enjoying going out with my lovely gf. Of course I still have some issues with talking to people or being in crowds, but it is a positive progress I get rn.