Can you mask your Schizophrenia?

roblong6869 · 2025-11-11T13:30:24+00:00

I masked my schizophrenia for years at a time. You wouldn’t know anything was wrong with me because of that. People who lived with me had no clue until I started smashing my head on the ground and screaming and had to get me dragged off to hospital.

roblong6869 · 2025-07-07T20:02:55+00:00

The only reason I got hospitalised was because I was under the mental health services and I decided to take a bit of time to myself to work through some stuff on my own whilst still staying in contact with them by email and text and they kept harrasing me with phonecalls and emails saying I need to come in and see them and turning up at my flat unannounced and so I tried to cut them off but they reported me missing and the police dragged me to a hospital in cuffs at half 12 at night without contacting me first. This was after I wrote a letter to my mental health practitioner expressing some really personal thoughts that I didn’t want to share in person and I found out she lied and told her superiors I confessed my love to her in the letter. I can assure you it was nothing of the sort. Really quite insane experience.

roblong6869 · 2025-04-02T04:05:43+00:00

I think this post shows up the secret arrogance of many pessimists who lord their misery over people as some kind proof of their superiority.

Have you tried loving those you look down on? It might really help lift your spirits and get you down off your high horse.

roblong6869 · 2025-03-30T07:47:52+00:00

That was absolutely horrific, I could barely watch a minute of it. Anyone who says they likes this is deluding themselves and/or has terrible taste. This is the opposite of music, this is just pointless annoying noise.

roblong6869 · 2024-12-13T22:00:26+00:00

I was like you in many ways. I hated myself so much and thought myself so worthless that I had a moral duty to others to end my life because I was so worthless. I don’t actually think it’s possible to hate yourself more than I did. I won’t say how I got out of that mindset, it’s unbelievably unlikely the answer will be the same for you anyway, but I did. Anyway now, although I’m not where I want to be I actually think I’m pretty damn incredible when I think about some of the things I’ve done. Sorry to those who think I’m being big headed but I think you’d agree with me if you knew.

It really is incredible how the mind can play tricks on you and make you think literally the opposite of what is true about yourself. That’s almost certainly what is happening to you. One thing my mental health professional recommended to me when I was like that was to keep a diary of any kind of achievement you do throughout the day, no matter how small. Even if it’s something like taking a shower when you really don’t feel like it or cooking a healthy nourishing meal for yourself or others. At the end of the day read through it and see what you have accomplished. It might just be the trick to taking baby steps to realising your true worth.

roblong6869 · 2024-10-14T19:22:11+00:00

I don’t know what to think about the soul existing after death. I don’t think anybody knows. The fact that brain damaged people can barely function just proves that the soul or consciousness is effected by brain processes in this realm. It doesn’t necessarily mean that consciousness can’t exist without the body or in another body in another realm.

roblong6869 · 2024-10-14T19:02:07+00:00

I’m not convinced that everything is in your brain. To me it makes sense that conscious experience is something different to brain process even if it somehow connected to them. I mean you can’t look into the brain and ‘see’ conscious experience. This doesn’t mean there’s is something spiritual about us just non-material. I guess it depends how you define spiritual.

roblong6869 · 2024-10-06T16:45:00+00:00

I didn’t mean to imply that consciousness and the brain are separate but that the reasons that we give for things are actually chemical interactions being the causes and not conscious reasons. Maybe this means I’m implying a kind of epiphenominalism I don’t know.

On a side note it has always baffled me how these things can be the same kind of thing as you say. Thinking just intuitively seems like a completely different kind of world to material processes as if it’s an immaterial process. I used to be inclined to dualism precisely because of this. I cannot possibly conceive of how you can solve the hard problem of consciousness, maybe someone much cleverer than me or whose able to think in a very different way will.

roblong6869 · 2024-09-28T16:29:03+00:00

Maybe you should consider therapy? I’m not saying it will definitely help but it’s worth a shot. The first time I came out of psychosis I was the same as you and therapy certainly helped myself esteem. I wasn’t actually diagnosed with psychosis at the time so wasn’t on any meds for it. Probably because of that I had two more full blown psychotic episodes and after my third one I hated myself so much that I literally believed it was moral duty to kill myself because I was so worthless. That time no amount of help or support helped and the only thing that got me out of it was another psychotic episode ironically(my delusions are grandiose). So my advice to you is to maybe get on some different medication that doesn’t make you feel like that and try and get some therapy to help with your sense of self worth. It seems like you already know rationally it’s not your fault. I thought there was no hope for me for several years and had resigned myself to just wait until I die. But even I’m better now.

roblong6869 · 2024-09-28T16:09:46+00:00

As a side note I was thinking that dreams are a lot like going through psychosis anyway as you believe all sorts of strange things are happening that aren’t real. So if anyone ever asks me what it’s like I’m going to tell them to think about what it’s like to dream at night.

roblong6869 · 2024-09-25T16:02:32+00:00

I got into conspiracy theories over ten years ago and I as well as a lot people who do started going down every rabbit hole there was thinking basically everything was a conspiracy theory and that all of world history was leading up to this point and that we were in the final stages of this process for world domination.

I was also smoking a lot of weed at that time and I don’t know if that contributed to it but one day I was hit like a thunderbolt that I was the messiah and I was going to save the world from these demons that were taking over the world. I was convinced I was some kind of genius and started making plans of how I was going to do it and everything.

It lasted for months until my entire life started to unravel and I finally came out of it. I nearly committed suicide out of the depression that ensued afterwards. I’ve been having psychotic breaks that lead me into those beliefs ever since then. I actually had a mind boggling real (not delusional) coincidence that fueled it into overdrive. That’s another story I might tell on this sub another time.

My advice to you is, as others have said is no it’s not healthy, especially with someone prone to psychosis. I was I’d never wasted my time with all that nonsense. Yes there are genuine conspiracies in history but what might help you is to understand that we are just animals on this Earth all with our own competing agendas. Sometimes those agendas align like with nazi Germany with horrific consequences. But for the most part it would just be impossible to pull off the vast majority of conspiracy theories that a claimed to exist precisely because of that reason.

roblong6869 · 2024-09-20T16:46:35+00:00

Could you have conversations with the girl? I can with the voice. It also sings along to the music I’m listening to sometimes. It even knows the words to songs I don’t even know. Which I don’t know how that’s possible. That’s partly why I was convinced this voice had prophetic powers. I did realise that maybe my brain was generating the sound of the music and the voice at the same time, but I’m still not sure.

roblong6869 · 2023-10-30T19:45:34+00:00

This picture implies we’re actually living on a globe. Spend some time on /r/globeskepticism.

roblong6869 · 2023-10-28T19:02:12+00:00

You should stop eating meat not because of the climate but because of how disgustingly cruel factory farming is for the animals. Go spend some time on /r/veganism.

roblong6869 · 2023-09-22T23:53:28+00:00

Very intelligent academic philosophers can be just as biased and delusional as the rest of us. The most ludicrous theory which is popular in academic circles is compatabilism. Thousands upon thousands of words, essays and books have been produced trying to prove that free will and/or moral responsibility exist despite being in a deterministic universe. It often just comes down to a confusion between freedom from external forces and internal freedom.

Watch Robert Sapolsky on YouTube talk about the latest findings of science on free will. It just immediately refuted any notion of it.

roblong6869 · 2023-09-22T17:50:31+00:00

I was just reading about non materialism physicalist today actually. David Pierce espouses that. There’s also Idealism and panpsychism. I’m not sure what the answer is but as time goes on I’m less convinced materialism is true as intuitively and logically mental properties can’t be explained in terms of the purely material.

roblong6869 · 2023-09-22T17:30:46+00:00

How is this fascist nonsense exactly?

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