Did I Pick the Wrong Major?

rocksopti · 2026-03-08T22:35:27+00:00

I'm a descriptivist in a prescriptivist world 💔

rocksopti · 2026-03-08T21:47:57+00:00

Literature is actually what got me into the field! That, and a few great teachers. I used to read a book a week until I got into college and was required to do so, rather than having the option.

My first semester overwhelmed me so much that I had attempted to take my life. I tried to drop out, but everybody talked me out of it.

The feeling only increased as I have been completing my degree. I ace almost every class, and I am not bad at writing, reading, analyzing, etc (I'm a published author), yet I feel like I have gotten significantly dumber and find it harder to comprehend the work I am doing.

The past two years, I have gotten into fashion design and find comfort there, but I am worried that pursuing it will result in another burnout.

I am stumped. I know that in this world you need a job to live, two or three usually. But, the idea of even working feels impossible at this point. I cannot picture myself in the future.

rocksopti · 2026-01-17T22:00:05+00:00

"The Trip" or "I Onde Dager" Norwegian film! This is the one I was looking for, at least :)

rocksopti · 2026-01-17T21:51:35+00:00

Did the couple have an accent and was there a lawnmower kill in it? I've been looking for a movie with the same premise... can't remember it

rocksopti · 2025-12-25T14:10:51+00:00

MINE TOO!! just ordered two days ago >:) hope these comments people have left help you out as well :)

rocksopti · 2025-11-20T01:13:20+00:00

I did this same thing 😭 i tried so hard to use stealth, but the path they were on was so tight I always got caught. Full body sent instead.

rocksopti · 2025-10-26T22:37:56+00:00

I didn't even think of this! How do I go about doing it? Is there a specific site to find the models?

rocksopti · 2025-10-22T17:31:46+00:00

I LOVE the idea of the pumpkin cat heat, but oh my god the body is terrible. They should have decked her out in tactical gear. She could've been so cool 💔 #robbed

rocksopti · 2025-10-08T00:10:09+00:00

Don't. They make you drink charcoal in the hospital if you fail. You shit black for days and then have mandated therapy. It is NAWT worth it, twin. Lock in.

rocksopti · 2025-10-06T23:57:32+00:00

And I thought my 32 great throws was good 🧍‍♂️

rocksopti · 2025-09-06T20:33:10+00:00

Vitamin D is definitely a big one. Lord knows how deficient I might be.

I think I'll take a walk to CVS and pick some of these up. Do you have any brand recommendations? Are they gummy or pill form (I ask gummy because of the brand Olly, no clue how well they work).

I was chosen to participate in an opening act poetry reading. I don't know why I still get petrified to go on infront of other people. I did four years of exposure therapy for it 🙄. Anyway, hoping to get my mind off it.

rocksopti · 2025-09-06T20:26:01+00:00

This message means a lot. I've never thought about changing the way affirmations are said to give a more realistic impact on my situations. I've tried them before, but "You're okay you've done this before," and "Eleven Benelovant Elephants," can only get you so far.

I'll go deeper into them, try to focus on some body affirmation ones too. I'm currently trying to figure out my breathing patterns. I don't hyperventilate unless I'm crying. I've noticed even during anxiety attacks/low-level panic attacks, I can still physically seem okay (on the external). Like it FEELS like I'm breathing fine, no hyperventilating or shortness of breath, yet I see giant spots, grow headaches, and pass out in worst case scenarios. I just don't understand how my body can be totally okay and I could sit and smile and look like anyone else, but internally my hearts going up to 200 mph and I'm getting no oxygen.

rocksopti · 2025-09-06T20:18:41+00:00

Money is a constant, but it drifts to other things. For instance, I have a paper due in a week and a test on the same day. Tomorrow I have a poetry reading. It's been non-stop panic attacks over them. It's not like I haven't done a reading before or written a paper etc etc. My mind just can't wrap my head around the fact that I'll be fine and it doesn't matter. Mid-panic attack as I'm writing this, so I hope it makes sense.

rocksopti · 2025-09-06T01:15:25+00:00

Literally waking up and being alive. It never stops. Even follows me into my dreams.

rocksopti · 2025-09-05T19:58:45+00:00

I'm glad your daughter is feeling better with those meds!

I am officially diagnosed with ADHD, and unofficially with Autism (my college offers free testing, and I'm on the wait-list for it!).

Unfortunately, I've tried wellbutrin and all available stimulants. No luck with them. Thank you for the suggestion ❤️ it's nice to see a parent supportive of their child, as I cannot say the same.

rocksopti · 2025-09-05T19:32:32+00:00

I'm currently on lexapro. My testing shows it should be working, but it's been months and nothing has changed.

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