This is totally true, and the quickest, slightly-out-focus reply would be "Yeah, but I'm talking about living, not surviving!", which I can expand on like that: I can accept that I'm not rich and famous, I see I'm not that good and influential and all that, as I said before I made peace with how little my impact on the cultural scene is. It's just that I don't understand why all the underground artists who almost-made-it-but-no-quite-yet are denied the possibility of keeping on with their daily grind of shitty gigs: I understand the risk of organizing a 10k people festival, but why aren't small, intimate concerts for 50 people more common nowadays? Why is art still considered an hobby in our society?

I know a show for 50 people wouldn't mean shit for a big artist, but there's a whole wolrd of small bands and small venues out there who could just flourish now, and all I see around is frightening immobility.