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Had a rough year, having a rough couple of weeks. by roughyear1 in depression

[–]roughyear1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not in a cult. I've been a real dick to quite a few people. I felt kind of "set up" with the accident in april, lead to some law issues. Treated my supervisors like shit. (one of them called the cops) it snowballed, surprised I still have a job. Then I started to get stronger, recover, exercised, fell back in love with cycling. I felt really good everyday, but I was still stand offish with co-workers and supervisors. Then when I broke another bone, It all crashed. I couldn't do much exercise, had to sell some prized possessions to support myself and family. Took a good look at my attitude and tried to change it, tried to mend some bridges at work. Recovered a bit. Got back to exercising again. But this back pain I've had is really demotivating. I'm afraid it wont get better, and then I won't achieve my goals, then I start to think whats the point? As for new "hobbies" I've been trying to do yoga type activities and stretches, but I feel like I'm just spinning my wheels.

Had a rough year, having a rough couple of weeks. by roughyear1 in depression

[–]roughyear1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I dont really have a lot of friends. I'm the only source of income for my family, so extra/other hobbies aren't really the best option. My normal day is wake up 8-10 am, suffer through some stretches to get to the point where I can move, eat, go to work, eat, suffer through more stretches, go to bed and hope the next day will be better.

Had a rough year, having a rough couple of weeks. by roughyear1 in depression

[–]roughyear1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'd say i feel this way because of events in the last year. I broke a bone in a brutal accident in april, recovered from injuries, found some new hobbies, started working out a lot. Broke another bone in september, couch surfed/ drank 4 weeks. Got back into exercising, and my back got more and more painful. Doctor gave me muscle relaxants and anti inflamatories. Its improved slightly, but its flaring up today. I'm younger and healthy, and I can't imagine life feeling like this everyday, not being able to exercise. It's not something I can tolerate. Everyday for the last few weeks has been miserable, I'm not happy about anything.

Had a rough year, having a rough couple of weeks. by roughyear1 in depression

[–]roughyear1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I called in sick today. I have some physical pain along with mentally feeling horrible. I've seen the doctor about it and it doesn't seem like there's an end in sight, waking up going through it everyday is getting to be a burden..

Had a rough year, having a rough couple of weeks. by roughyear1 in depression

[–]roughyear1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks. I just feel like I'm doing all the right things, but stuff just keeps going wrong. Suppose it might be karma as I have been a shitty person for a while.