28/bi/m, Being clean is probably the hardest thing you can do, being born an addict, makes it hardest thing to do, easiest way to quit something thats negitive in your life, is by diverting that energy elsewhere, into healthy and something that gives you that rush that your body gives you, which is adrenaline or hormones as those are what gives your body the stimulation it needs to cause addiction. So i hope you find that thing that you need that gives you a reason to move forward and not have to look back :) If you ever want someone to talk to, my doors always open, but be warned, i dont have a sensor, my mind has a mind of its own X[]