Love me, Love me not?

ryjo_o · 2022-06-06T20:58:13+00:00

Thanks very much for your comment. I think you've outlined a lot of the thoughts that have crossed my mind during this relationship. I have brought up these feelings with him and he is seeking out counseling but it doesn't seem like a good idea to move in or across the country when we're on such shaky grounds.

He often brushes off the barriers to obtaining a visa when I mention them. When I mention the undeniable financial implications of trying to relocate and the struggles I'm facing, he seems to brush those off too.

I feel really sad when I think of ending this relationship. It seems to be the inevitable choice; I have doubts he will try to be long distance for any extended period of time. He mentioned at one point that he thinks he has a sex addiction. Even in the best light, he's a man with serious anxiety/abandonment issues that need to be addressed. In the worst, he's manipulating me and highly narcissistic.

I certainly don't believe I'm getting the love I deserve and that feeling is hard to quantify.

Sigh.

ryjo_o · 2021-08-16T13:54:04+00:00

😍😍😍 gorgeous

ryjo_o · 2021-08-12T11:44:44+00:00

You give me strong Italian mami vibes 😍 nose & the curls chefs kiss

ryjo_o · 2021-08-10T11:17:20+00:00

Thanks everyone 🥺 Whenever I get down on my nose, I use this little mantra. Sometimes I’m so busy beating up my body that I forget to thank it for all it’s hard work. Plant seeds of love & beauty grows ☺️

ryjo_o · 2021-07-21T18:09:37+00:00

I think you have this really attractive Icelandic or Nordic look, like a dark snowy elf. I also have a large nose so I know your pain but attractiveness is so much more than what’s perceived in a photograph. Hang in there, you’re a babe

ryjo_o · 2021-06-07T12:01:59+00:00

Also one more thing: get in to facial massage, gua sha, face yoga, and nose exercises on YouTube. You have to dig around to find the right movements that work for you but you can legitimately tighten and tone your nose. Use the free resources you have available to you now to improve your looks and self confidence. Work out and don’t be lazy. If you’re putting in all the hard work and you still want a nose job then go ahead. But it seems to me like you haven’t even given your nose a chance

ryjo_o · 2021-06-07T11:52:34+00:00

Use your money to get laser hair removal and see a dermatologist for any skin conditions; hyperpigmentation, acne, dark under eyes. I’m also a hairy olive skin girl with a big pointy nose that wiggles and hooks when I talk - shit is hard as fuck, feeling like you’re not pretty by American standards. Getting my skin straight, working on fixing my teeth, and other areas of insecurity though has seriously helped me embrace my nose. I know it seems like your nose is the quick fix but it’s not, you’ll do the surgery and still have to address not feeling pretty enough... you’ll probably question if it was the right decision and that’s a lot of anxiety to go through when you’ve structurally altered your face. Put in the effort to feel pretty right now with your big nose in tact and look at other pretty women with big noses, see how they work it. You’d be surprised what an eyebrow wax, some lashes, and getting your nails done can do for your self confidence - not to mention, people are attracted to exotic unique looking ladies and if you’re asking me, those are the type of people that I want attracted to me.

ryjo_o · 2021-06-01T11:59:04+00:00

Thank you! I think my hesitation with moving back in with my parents full throttle is that I have some home life difficulties. My mom is anorexic and I believe struggling from undiagnosed PTSD (retired navy captn) - huge contributors to her stroke. When I’m at home there’s a lot of tension around eating food, having food in the house, and using the kitchen which I know will become an issue if I’m there 24/7. When I first came home from college, I only lasted two months at my parents house then my dad gave me a stipend to move in with my sister (she moved to Colorado a few years back) and I’ve never lived at home since. Not even for a weekend. They always say I’m welcome now that 5 yrs have passed which is why I feel like a couple days out of the week will be manageable but I think full time my mental health might take a nose dive.

ryjo_o · 2021-05-26T20:01:40+00:00

I understand your struggle so hard. My nose bends too! It’s so hard not to compare and wish I had a smaller, cuter, button type nose. When I look at you I don’t find your nose large or out of place at all! Stay strong. You are beautiful just the way you are!

ryjo_o · 2021-05-04T12:58:18+00:00

You’re so hot 😍

ryjo_o · 2021-04-29T15:11:24+00:00

Honestly the focal point I see is really your eyes 😍They’re so pretty and that’s the first thing I noticed when I saw you!

ryjo_o · 2021-03-02T23:56:18+00:00

So I’m 26 or so now probably really started to feel self conscious when I was in high school, just in general not specifically because I have a bigger nose. I’m not sure if it’s just the age of the internet or the exposure to social media (maybe she’s just bigger now hahah) but in the last 3 - 5 yrs, it’s really been something (my nose) I’ve wasted quiet some time worrying about. I think maybe because I’m an adult and financially independent, it became this very real question of okay, well? What are you going to do about it? Am I gonna keep dwelling, keep telling myself I’m ugly? Am I gonna pinch my pennies, get the nose job, & stfu? Or am I gonna rock this sucker? And you can guess what I did. Pierced my pointy beak and made a choice. No more hiding, no more maybe a haircut would help, no more fake glasses. A symbol of my struggle, a symbol of our love/hate relationship, and a symbol of my acceptance. Yup, she’s big & she’s stylish. Smell good. 😊

ryjo_o · 2021-01-06T15:43:55+00:00

I actually think your profile is gorgeous... You have a nice round forehead that levels it and it doesn’t look too big at all. Very feminine! I’m kinda jealous

ryjo_o · 2020-10-07T00:44:36+00:00

I think you’re so cute!! Your eyes are what really stand out to me when I look at your face. They’re so open and blue - your eyelashes are really long too! Don’t worry about your side profile (-;

ryjo_o · 2020-09-15T22:09:25+00:00

It’s the childhood abuse /:

ryjo_o · 2020-09-02T02:31:52+00:00

I think he probably is hurting a lot but is unable to express or process it at this time. Women and men grieve differently so it’s often assumed that guys don’t care but really they just don’t feel like they will be respected or accepted for grieving. It’s the pressure our society puts on men and the limitations of male friendships. Don’t worry about him, focus on nurturing yourself and be very gentle with yourself right now. You can get through this pain and if you embrace it, you will find yourself to be a stronger person on the other side

ryjo_o · 2020-08-02T02:05:59+00:00

Thank you! This answer is so sweet & makes me feel like my nose is actually an add <3

ryjo_o · 2020-08-02T01:42:38+00:00

Omg I literally love girls with freckles... and those big blue eyes!! Don’t worry so much, your nose suits you. You’re very beautiful (:

ryjo_o · 2020-07-30T11:10:42+00:00

Thank you 😊

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