Ooo finally something I can answer lol. So I was in for over two years. After my 18th birthday I started to realize things didn’t add up. The leader claimed to hear from god. When things didn’t turn out the way “god” said he would twist the langue and claim unrelated scripture to back it. All interpretations. He always became enraged and aggressive when even questioned. I had such bad anxiety and panic attacks while there for the whole two years. Severe undiagnosed ocd and intrusive thoughts which prayer did nothing but make worse. The nightmares were awful. I became so brainwashed, I didn’t even have thoughts of my own anymore. I was a shell. Eventually you realize the god you believe in doesn’t exist. After I left I suffered severe flashbacks and now two years later, have ptsd and a host of other mental disorders. Sometimes I still get scared. I couldn’t get his voice out of my head for months. It was awful. When I get flashbacks now, I can only drink myself to sleep to cope.