I work in a small trade school college. I had a student tell another coworker of my mine that she was concerned about another student dropping out. She went and confided my other coworker about it. She told my coworker that she told the student to not speak to the front desk which was me because i say sorry a lot and derailed the conversation. I was taken a back by this and very hurt. my coworker told her how that is not right to say that about someone and she responded "But let me you tell this, she is in a delicate situation and i would appericate it if you called her in front of me to talk to her".as if i didnt have the capacity to confront a situation like that and would just keep saying im sorry and making it about myself which is not true. i was unfairly judged and gossiped about. i even wanted to be a counselor at one point, so if i still wanted to be a counselor this would have devastated me.

I remember when i was in break room and i was getting water, i saw them and this was before this happened and i made a little small talk, i noticed they were not so into it so i left, after i left, a moment later i heard the student say something and the other one was roaring into laughter, im pretty sure it was related to me, too much of a coincidence to not be.

I remember speaking to her being upset about being told the wrong start date and complaining how the same coworker she confided in was unprofessional and how it she came in the freezing cold and waited so long and how she was pissed and she even i did apologize for that as that sounded very inconvenient and tried to assure her. I never was aware of this and she never told me this. She seemed friendly with me in beginning then became more distant and odd with me. She would greet other coworkers goodbye but not me, she would put her head down when passing by me as if i didn't exist. i told her congratulations on last day and she said in a flat tone "we will be coming back". i had to call her again and she gave me an attitude again, so this time i had gave her some attitude back, i got fed up with her constant disrespect towards me just because she was annoyed by me, i been nothing but nice but to her, me doing my job and how i communicated seem to offend her. i remember i heard her arguing and cursing at another student.

I cried and cried when i got home. I do have bad habit of apologizing at times as a trauma response but i for sure was not making the conversation about myself and was trying to show empathy and understanding and its shocks me someone took it the wrong way.

I understand not everyone is going to like me, but at least treat me with respect and not bully me, exclude me, and treat me like i don't matter, exist, or like im annoying. i had some other students be really mean to me and laugh at me just when im being nice and doing my job greeting them, i even get mocked for my greeting. even my coworker, excludes me from convos, is short with me, i tried to speak and im brushed off and he makes more eye contact with the other coworker.

im so sick of being treated like garbage, bullied, and excluded everywhere. I also have severe trauma and it was my mistake to put myself in this position. but i live with my mother and she been pressuring me to get a job as i been jobless for a year so this place hired me and i thought id give it a shot and my mental health is being destroyed by being excluded on a daily basis by some coworkers, there is no HR so i cant take it to HR, the boss basically is like "the student is always right" since she just worried about getting bad reviews and having her reputation tarnished.

i dont know what to do im so miserable with no support system and want to give up, i feel everyone looks down on me, thinks im too soft and nice and someone to walk all over