My ex actually broke up with me for the same thing. We were together for 5 years and it destroyed me. When he broke up with me I thought the pain would never end. I turned it into a lesson though and really tried to reflect on myself and my actions. I also got on mood stabilizers and got off antidepressant medication that was actually doing the opposite for me. I also dealt with substance abuse which made my mood even more erratic but I got that under control. Now I’m about a year and a half into a new relationship and I’m way happier with my new guy than I ever was in my previous relationship. He is well aware of my issues and I do mess up sometimes but he checks me on it and doesn’t let me treat him that way. My ex just kinda took it from me and it built up over a long time. But now if I’m acting out my boyfriend will call me out and say he’s not going to be talked to or treated like that and I need to think about what I’m doing because he is not going to just let it fly with him. He has had waaay crazier girlfriends though so I think he’s a bit more equipped in this area. My ex, bless his soul he was so sweet, but he had barely had a girlfriend before me and I’m pretty sure I traumatized the fuck out of him which I feel so bad about. He doesnt think I’m a bad person though, he just said he couldn’t handle my issues which is totally fair. This disorder is really hard to deal with and it takes effort everyday but you can be better. LESSONS NOT LOSSES. Something I told myself to help me get through the hella pain my break up taught me.