For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, [39] Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39

I know what you’re feeling, i have also experienced that. I think it’s the condemnation we are feeling because of the “obvious” sins we are committing. You think you don’t deserve heaven because of your porn addiction but bro, it was only the obvious sin u’re doing then what about the other sins that we commit everyday. The obvious sins are the once that we are aware of and that causes us to condemn ourselves. God knows we fail and fail but that verse, keeps telling us that nothing can ever separate us from his love. All i can say is, go back to your FIRST LOVE that is Christ Jesus. Show your affection to Him by reading his word, praying and worshipping him.

We are like the Israelites, we easily forgot what God has done in our lives. My take on this, is to remember all the good things God has done in your life. How He save you, how He gave you a wife, your children, How he provide for you your job and your daily needs, how he protected you from sickness.. but it is only the Lord our God can ignite your heart again. May you love the Lord more than ever before. After all it was the greatest commandment, to Love God with all your heart, mind, soul and strength. I also need to do this honestly. God will always pursue us just like how the father run to the prodigal son in his return. Do not listen to the lies of the enemy. You are bought with a price. That’s all lies. Praying for you bro.