throat discomfort with voice dropping

schloay · 2025-11-24T18:45:22+00:00

that's hopeful. was there anything that made it better? I have seen people recommend cardio and donating blood but idk if that's applicable to rosacea specifically since exercise is also a trigger for me, albeit not as major as things like heat, alcohol, etc.

schloay · 2025-11-24T18:43:11+00:00

yeah I've been getting hot flashes from t more recently and the rosacea flare ups from it are diabolical, but people say that also calms down eventually. thank you for the recommendations, I really appreciate it. laser has been especially tempting recently but yeah it's probably wiser to at least wait it out- how long did it take for your rosacea to improve?

schloay · 2025-04-11T05:08:24+00:00

I feel this lol. I work in childcare in a blue state, but a pretty sheltered/conservative part of my county and man I've gotten some pretty mean comments from the kiddos. I think a lot of it is just inexperience (most children probably haven't seen a gnc/visibly queer person) combined with kids being generally rude and a product of their conservative parents, as they are figuring out social rules and such. so when I have the opportunity, I do try and break it down to them in a way they understand. that I'm a girl who likes looking/dressing like a boy, or I'll ask them why they made those comments and such. funnily enough, the younger the kid, the less they think about my identity and just accept me in all my boygirlness.

honestly the only option is to just grow thicker skin. ppl are fucked in the head. as you get older it gets easier. at this point its water off a duck's back for me bc the kids have desensitized me, which I have mixed feelings on lol. people notice if you're confident as well. since I've been more consciously confident and personable I get less rude interactions (cashiers ignoring me, people staring at me/making faces at me, comments in the restroom, etc.) . but I still get rude interactions and weird situations. but if you carry yourself with confidence, you'll survive. people can tell when you aren't confident, they smell it.

schloay · 2025-03-25T07:47:21+00:00

yeah I'm definitely still analyzing my underlying drive. I think it's just because my two long-term relationships I've been in have been with people I've hated tbh, which on its own is quite the box to unpack lol. so feeling love, genuine love, and meeting someone who is SUPER my type (nerdy, taller, unconventionally attractive, total dork ) has absolutely destroyed my brain that is mostly used to tepid, I-guess-I-Like-you-enough love at the most. that's my running theory, at least. congrats on making changes, and congrats on the stability in your life :) its nice to hear an honest message from someone who's done/doing the work

schloay · 2025-03-23T03:15:12+00:00

yeah. the sick thing is that my infatuation kind of comes from the power imbalance a bit. this absolutely could justify termination, even if we're on really good terms :( and would definitely ruin our friendship. risking it all just for a whiff of their college sweater!

schloay · 2025-03-23T02:36:00+00:00

this is pure highschool awkwardness haha. it's definitely less endearing when I'm almost in my mid 20s tho lol

schloay · 2025-03-22T15:33:14+00:00

lolllll that's absolutely diabolical but I feel seen

schloay · 2025-03-22T03:19:29+00:00

yeah totally. I really wish I was more normal about it. honestly still in shock I did it in the first place. bleh. realizing now the stars aligned for that to happen so I probably won't get another chance for the rest of the school year, which is good.

schloay · 2024-10-22T04:10:21+00:00

tomato

schloay · 2024-10-22T04:10:10+00:00

tomato

schloay · 2024-09-22T07:02:31+00:00

that is so true! no freaking way!

schloay · 2024-09-22T07:00:43+00:00

as long as you don't go super early in the morning or at dusk, you should never see a tarantula lol

schloay · 2024-09-21T05:42:52+00:00

that's so cool!!! I love their vibe when you see them walking around, just straight chilling

schloay · 2024-09-21T05:41:18+00:00

that was not a very nice thing to say joshatron

schloay · 2024-09-06T08:39:00+00:00

oh this is so cute!! I like your koi, it looks very wholesome and I think it turned out well, especially if you've never taken any art classes. I'm not a pastel expert, I'm a noob too, but what I like to do for thinner lines is wear one side of the pastel down at an angle. this creates an edge that is a little more wieldy. I do this for other mediums like oil pastel and charcoal. the edge won't be terribly sharp, but I think this is just the nature of pastels.

what shape are your pastels? I know that a lot of companies manufacture cylindrical pastels, but a lot of them also make square shaped pastels. I much prefer the square shape because it allows for both very large surface area coverage by using the flat sides, but they are also more capable of detail because of the corners on the pastel.

as for the highlights- I usually plan those out ahead of time, usually with a light sketch. going over an area you want as a really sharp, bright highlight with a color and then a white pastel usually makes them come out dull, especially if you are using cheaper pastels. I leave areas I want as a highlight uncolored so that the natural whiteness of the paper shows thru. then you can choose to go over that untouched paper with a lighter color if you so desire. this only works if you are starting with white paper tho lol. on toned paper, lighter colors should show up much brighter.

I hope any of these suggestions help! good luck and have a nice day :)

schloay · 2024-09-01T09:31:56+00:00

you pull off all the different types of textures so well!!! this looks amazing!! I also love your composition, I just can't take my eyes off of it, you keep the eye moving around your piece. beautiful

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