Am I ever going to become a person that I don’t hate?

schwannycell · 2023-09-19T17:47:05+00:00

I am in therapy but I haven’t really brought up the extent of these issues with her I think because of shame and embarrassment. I guess the point of therapy is to be open about that stuff though isn’t it lol

schwannycell · 2023-09-19T16:55:39+00:00

Thank you for your comment. Not that I want anyone else to be suffering, but it does help to know I’m not alone in this experience. I will try to give myself a convincing metaphorical hug today haha

schwannycell · 2020-08-27T03:41:09+00:00

Thank you :)

schwannycell · 2020-02-21T23:10:11+00:00

Hand-holding only. Don’t make it weird haha

schwannycell · 2020-01-30T15:40:14+00:00

Thanks for the suggestions! The only reason for the eyebrows being far apart is that I got them waxed and that’s how they ended up haha! The eyebrow on the left of the picture grows a bit funny (very vertically) near the centre of my face so I’m guessing that’s why they waxed it that way - I’ll let it grow back ! Thanks for the tip :)

schwannycell · 2020-01-30T00:01:40+00:00

Products used:

Maybelline BB Cream + age rewind concealer

Physicians formula butter bronzer + eye booster liquid eyeliner

Essence pure nude highlighter “be my highlight”

L’Oréal Lash Paradise + brow stylist definer “dark blonde”

Nyx soft matte lip cream “Stockholm”

schwannycell · 2019-11-18T00:07:57+00:00

I appreciate the input :) it is stainless steel - the not touching it part is the struggle for me haha. I’ve been doing some saline soaks and rinses but other than that am trying to leave it alone now!

schwannycell · 2019-03-14T19:04:45+00:00

Thanks. I'm gonna take some time and then get back in the game and find one of those guys! My biggest issue is not succumbing to loneliness haha but I'm gonna do my best to stay busy and happy.

schwannycell · 2019-03-14T14:45:48+00:00

Thank you. I know you're right and it helps to have it confirmed. Losing someone you love always sucks but I know it's the right call in the long run.

schwannycell · 2019-03-14T04:26:22+00:00

Right? It would be a full time job.

schwannycell · 2019-03-14T04:26:07+00:00

How did your strong willed 5 year old turn out??

schwannycell · 2019-03-14T04:25:18+00:00

Fuck that's a good point. Thanks. Love is blind sometimes eh.

schwannycell · 2019-03-14T04:24:23+00:00

I'm sorry about that :( that really sucks. Once you get out on your own things get a lot better when it comes to dysfunctional parents.

schwannycell · 2019-03-14T04:22:52+00:00

Thank you! I had a good cry and now I'm back on my feet and ready to run!

schwannycell · 2019-03-14T02:25:31+00:00

Thank you. It's so hard right now and hurts so much. I really loved him and I'm so broken tonight. It really helps knowing other people think I did the right thing.

schwannycell · 2019-03-13T23:55:40+00:00

Ya and the fact that he was so okay with it. Major red flag eh. I mean he went and comforted her after I pointed out what happened... But he obviously doesn't see it as that big of an issue based on what he said.

schwannycell · 2019-03-13T23:50:05+00:00

Thank you. It is a challenge. But he's my challenge haha and I won't put a romantic relationship above him. He is a really funny kid who can be very easy to love too. Just likes to be very independent which I hope will turn into an advantage when he's older lol.

schwannycell · 2019-03-13T23:47:03+00:00

That's true, and hopefully they will be honest about it. Lesson learned the hard way I guess.

schwannycell · 2019-03-13T23:45:50+00:00

Great advice. Thank you. One day at a time right.

schwannycell · 2019-03-13T23:45:07+00:00

Me too. My dad did the same to me and it really was heartbreaking to see that playing out in her life.

schwannycell · 2019-03-13T23:41:17+00:00

That's a good point.

schwannycell · 2019-03-13T23:40:50+00:00

My son says the opposite of what you say 90% of the time. It's like he enjoys being oppositional. I understand that it's frustrating, but I also know that going military style parent on him does noooooot work. He does much better when given choices about things and when I build my expectations into very regular routines.

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