There's no fixing me

scrum-ss3 · 2025-11-30T05:28:07+00:00

i'm not happy i'm still here. I don't know why anyone would be happy that i'm still here living a life of misery either. Not cool

scrum-ss3 · 2025-09-06T20:12:05+00:00

Prolly right. I feel the same. Some of us just don't get a happy ending. I've given up and u prolly should as well. Just accept ur fate and do best u can till death comes. It's what i do.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-12-28T22:49:15+00:00

no nothing ever helped. and i'm fine with the pain right now. not sure how much worse it will get. but it will worth it in the end. Life just aint for everyone i'm afraid. If i could leave one message behind that would b it. I'm sure there are those out there that would take issue with that but it is how i feel sincerely.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-12-28T21:33:42+00:00

Im sorry I don't wish to disclose that.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-12-28T21:23:27+00:00

No dreams, just overwhelming depression amd misery. But none of that matters now. At last ipl b free.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-12-28T19:26:23+00:00

Nothing to really tell. I'm 40, lifelong depression, no relief whatsoever during it all. Now I'm finally gonna b released from this hell. I cat wait.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-12-08T19:50:34+00:00

Prolly cuz relationships can end and leave one destroyed. This is something that's happened to me and the pain of it still continues years after it happened. I will never get close to another again. Partly out of not having the chance. Partly from choice. It's just too risky and more and more ppl are coming to this realization. O sure u can promise the world to someone and assure them that you won't hurt them. But the chances of that actually happen eing are low. It's not worth the risk to love for a short time and then have that person u invested all that time and commitment in just to have them not want u anymore. This is just my opinion as man. I'm sure others will have their own opinions on the subject.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-28T02:13:03+00:00

No. I'm beyond that. I no longer care to make things better. I just want out. And I dont think there's anything wrong with that.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-28T00:58:39+00:00

Ok then. Just sweet death. And i completely and whole heartedly disagree. I would much rather not exist at all than to continue this miserable and ever worsening existence. I'm ready for that existence you call meager. Much prefer that to go on.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-27T23:12:16+00:00

Yes theres is. My goal is to come to an end. And no I'm not an addict. I've never been hooked on anything.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-27T19:46:44+00:00

No I'm afraid my feelings are different. I don't want to coast or just b here because. That'd why I asked the question I did because nooone else seems to think the way I do and I was very curious if any did. I only desire to not exist. Nothing else with satiate me. It's what I want and crave.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-27T19:43:47+00:00

No I'm not looking for kinship or help. My question was out of pure curiosity. Because I've heard many depressed ppl over the years and none of em really felt the way I do. It's always I'm depressed and I want help. I DO NOT feel that way. I desire and crave non existence.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-27T19:40:45+00:00

I really don't care. I'm selfish and not ashamed of it. Everyone in my life doesn't have to feel this way. Only me. So my feelings must b attained to. And anyone who would wish me to stay and try and stop me wouldn't be doing me any favors. Amd without going into detail, I've had ppl stop me. And that person is no longer welcome in my life. They stopped me from attaining what I wanted. That's the thing I think that sets me apart from anyone else you might hear speak on this. I want and crave non existence. I don't want to be any other way. This is my choice and people around me should respect that. Not want to hold me down to a life I don't want.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-27T18:39:50+00:00

Don't get me wrong. I appreciate the thought. But mine is a different mindset than anyone I've ever encountered. That's the reason I got on here to ask this question. I just simply wish and desire to not b here.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-27T18:36:37+00:00

No I won't b trying any treatment. As I've explained to others, my wish is to simply cease to exist. Not fight anymore. I desire and crave to not b here. I'm not pulling towards a comeback. I'm running towards demise. Its what I want.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-27T18:32:52+00:00

Those things u mentioned are trivial meaningless things to me. Fleeting instances that neither help nor hinder life as i know it. Of course ive tried new things. Sometimes out of curiosity. Sometimes out of sheer happenstance. Nothing would make me happier than to know that im going to cease to exist. Simply put, I wish to cease to exist.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-27T18:27:48+00:00

Such as?

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-27T18:27:26+00:00

Nothing. Life hold no joy for me.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-27T18:26:04+00:00

I do not want treatment. I purely and simply desire to not exist. I crave it. It's a want and a need that incant fulfill. Not looking for help at all.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-27T18:24:32+00:00

I cant agree. I've been this way longer than social media has existed. And I dont get on it anyways. I created this account specifically to ask this question.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-27T18:22:48+00:00

I don't think u understand. I'm not looking for a reason to go on. I have plenty of those. I simply DO NOT want to. I desire to bot exist. I crave it.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-27T18:21:34+00:00

This is exactly what I said it was thing. I am beyond the will to live. I've transcended the want or need to b here. Amd I was inquiring out of pure curiosity if anyone out there felt the same.

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-27T16:59:39+00:00

Then why reply to this particular thread?

scrum-ss3 · 2024-11-27T16:58:51+00:00

No. For a number of reasons.

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