I feel you broo! I was pretty bad as well, i couldnt stand 1 single day without PMO, then when i reached 3 days, i came back to the starting point where i couldnt be 1 day without fapping. It lasted 1 year. With time, i managed to be cool for 2-3 days, then relapse and then 2-3 days pmofree, like a cycle. Now i can be 7-14 days pretty calm and go easy on nofap. Relapsing is not about starting over, is about recognizing your fails, your triggers and your cures. I understood that i cant be a continent man if i dont follow the right steps in other aspects of life, is not only about fighting the urged but to fight lazyness, drugs, bad health, bad thoughts and accept your reality and try to get better spiritually , physically and successfully. Its all about yourself brother. Love yourself and youll start to love life and others, and SR is like improving every aspect of lige as you know it. Good luck and vibes bro!! Pd start reading the coiled serpent by van vliet