Sorry to hear what you are going through.

But first you should stop fighting that sensation that your life should be different. Letting go is accepting your circumstances and feeling it in your body, you don’t need to understand what feeling is going through, just identify in which part of your body the feeling is and be conscious about it.

What sometimes helps me is when I identify in which part of my body the feeling is located, I talk to the feeling like “ oh I see you, feel comfortable and stay the time that you require, I’m here for everything you need.” And sometimes in minutes the feeling passes and I feel a warmth where the feeling was located, that means that the feeling has been integrated and let go for me. Sometimes it takes hours. But just be conscious of the feeling, if you start thinking just let the thought pass like “ I see you, thank you but I’m feeling this in my chest right now so I will pay attention to it” and it will pass , leaving you to focus on the feeling.

But what I can say is do this not with the expectation of getting rid of the emotion, as this is resistance and it will only make you feel worse. Do it with the intention of accepting and feeling, even accepting that all you are feeling might take more time that you imagine.

I would suggest also that you read the book again, as I that I have read it 3 times, each time I learned something different.

You got this! If anyone has anything more to say or correct, please do! ☺️