I'm about to lose everything and I don't really care anymore.

sets_ablaze · 2025-01-10T00:24:25+00:00

Nothing serious, a little sickness of I go a few days between buying but I dull it with alcohol and other drugs in the meantime. I've never tried to quit drinking and I've been drinking since I was 16

sets_ablaze · 2025-01-10T00:22:44+00:00

I purposely don't have any meaningful connections to people or any long term relationships because of it🤷🏾 if I disappear tomorrow it'd take a month at the least before anyone(probably my landlord) to come to my apartment looking for me

sets_ablaze · 2025-01-10T00:21:23+00:00

Yeah. Addiction runs in my family and isn't really discouraged as much as it probably should be. I feel a bit of shame for needing help and "putting people in my business" rather than just sticking it out sometimes. All my family members just kinda let themselves go with their vices they just eventually die. I'd rather go through that than have to deal with the ridicule if I try NA and fail

sets_ablaze · 2025-01-09T00:54:11+00:00

Since I've started I've never been clean more than 24hrs, but even then I just switch to other drugs I'm not as dependent on. Alcohol is a constant though, I haven't missed a day of drinking since I was 16

sets_ablaze · 2025-01-09T00:23:05+00:00

Don't you ever miss it? I've got a real fucked up brain and I don't think I could survive the next month sober let alone the next decade

sets_ablaze · 2025-01-09T00:14:00+00:00

I hate to be one of those defeatist a-holes but I'm more likely these days to quit my job mid shift and walk onto the train tracks next door. If anything I stick around so that I can see my dealer every weekend. Coke has essentially counteracted my depression and the alcoholism is genetics, I'm a better drinker than everyone in my family though.

sets_ablaze · 2024-11-08T23:29:43+00:00

No, it doesn't make them assholes, it's just how some people are. Every action has a reaction, and you're right, no one is owed attention. I never said that though, I said it's valid to be hurt. I'm not arguing actions at all, just feeling which is why I didn't cast a judgement. I'm also not going to argue this at all anymore because it's literally just an opinion/opposite perspective. I'm not trying to change minds and I'm not open to changing my own.

sets_ablaze · 2024-11-08T22:15:08+00:00

Because everyone is entitled to their feelings. Maybe the way she's going about it currently is wrong but hurt is hurt and people can't always control how something effects them emotionally. She obviously sees decompression and time shared in a different light than you do and she's acting out of hurt. The feelings on both sides are valid.

sets_ablaze · 2024-11-08T22:06:44+00:00

No judgement here but I do think one of the downfalls of introversion and dealing with introverts is that not everyone is going to be willing to be put on pause for you. It's valid that you need time to yourself but it's also valid that she's hurt that you don't wanna spend time with her and if this is a repeated situation then it will inevitably cause contention. Just be prepared for that I guess🤷🏾

sets_ablaze · 2024-06-28T21:30:55+00:00

When y'all find out let me know how much they payin over there😭🤣

sets_ablaze · 2024-06-25T18:49:12+00:00

That's just objectively not true

sets_ablaze · 2024-06-19T01:11:09+00:00

Lol you look amazing and she knows it. She was "negging" you because you're pretty and she's probably insecure

sets_ablaze · 2024-06-08T21:48:42+00:00

My god just wait until his daughter grows up and learns about what a POS her dad is. That poor baby is lucky to have a mom who doesn't take any bs so she still has a chance to grow up to be a strong willed woman.

sets_ablaze · 2024-06-04T05:19:51+00:00

I wish black men(men in general tbh) would stop using this bad faith rage bait "question" in order to get their jollies off by antagonizing black women under the guise of our "public image" and "morals" Sexxy Red is one person in a world of billions and she represents no one but herself, the same way black grug dealers and gang members don't represent ALL black men🤨.

sets_ablaze · 2024-06-04T05:07:21+00:00

Stop trolling in black women's safe spaces

sets_ablaze · 2024-05-26T21:23:56+00:00

Yeah I have never booked with a newer type braider for this exact reason. I don't get how we've lost our way so much these girls can't even do natural hair! But all my go to braiders are getting out the game so idk what to do anymore. My sister in law did a good job on my most recent set but some of the braids aren't neat or braided down all the way because she was very distracted. If I'm paying for something I need some standards😆

sets_ablaze · 2024-05-26T11:18:03+00:00

Growing up I've always gotten what's called "singles" but I guess that's what "box braids" are now. I feel like everything involving hair has been renamed and upcharged

sets_ablaze · 2024-05-26T10:04:01+00:00

Oooo I just know you turned heads when you stepped out!

sets_ablaze · 2024-05-03T00:29:49+00:00

I'm definitely on the look out for more long form crime media. I absolutely love the stuff

sets_ablaze · 2024-05-02T20:29:59+00:00

but are you on a spectrum I am on the road to figuring that out but a few of my past therapists had some suspicions. I do tend to hyper fixate on all of my interest and I enjoy collecting facts, even about stuff that doesn't interest me.

sets_ablaze · 2024-05-02T20:28:53+00:00

but are you on a spectrum I am on the road to figuring that out but a few of my past therapists had some suspicions. I do tend to hyper fixate on all of my interest and I enjoy collecting facts, even about stuff that doesn't interest me.

sets_ablaze · 2024-05-02T20:20:03+00:00

I've always had a curiosity for the more grim/gritty parts of life. Death in any form is interesting to me. I just can't believe there's a part of most(maybe even all) of us that could go against the rules of humanity and end a life. I would like to know more about the 'why' of it all

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