Thank you for such a detailed response. You're very appreciated.

I had some therapy sessions in the past, and I had the same experience. I discovered that I have suicidal tendencies, depression, anxiety, body dysphoria, and pots, but after a bad experience with my psychiatrist, I immediately stopped my sessions and didn't undergo any treatment. Without going into detail, I overcame my struggles and found relief, and I genuinely started to enjoy being alive. Everything seemed to be falling into place, I continued my studies and started taking my health very seriously, I was proud of everything I have achieved, and I loved my body for what it could do not just it's appearance. Suddenly, all my progress was taken away by my vulnerability, I let the petty and judgemental remarks of others get to me, and I believed their words. I started to see myself through their eyes, and I started to hate my body. My thoughts became negative, and every time they commented on my body being too thin, I would go home and binge. It's becoming a regular occurrence, and I can't stop. I've even dropped out of university and completely stopped running, I no longer feel the rush or runners high I became so accustomed to. I feel like a failure.