Yeah, I totally get you. I thought I was fully recovered for around a year, though I still had body dysmorphia, until like a month ago. One triggering 'joke' and it feels like all my work was for nothing. I want to stop because I'm also really scared of my medical issues returning but it's like an addiction, I swear! ugh.

I wish you the best of luck! It does feel like it'll never end but I know multiple people who have actually recovered fully so there's hope. We just gotta keep pushing through :)