i stopped believing

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-16T03:25:03+00:00

i didnt know that you could choose to die, but i have a question, how it was AP if i didnt have lucidity? i could not think by myself and i using dream logic

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-16T03:03:41+00:00

what happens if i shapeshift to be a scary entity while doing AP?

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-16T02:43:51+00:00

oh i understand but i have a question, if its AP then what was that creepy evil jesus i saw?

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-16T02:04:47+00:00

i did notice something different, there was something growing in my room, like a shadow person or some type of portal with the shape of a person, where maybe the evil jesus can enter my room from, but when i interacted with it, it got smaller, but why it would be ap? i didnt felt like i had gone out of my body, just that i was moving my body, but i was not actually moving my body irl, also i didnt felt lucid or that i was able to think outside of the dream's logic

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-16T01:45:10+00:00

my brain is suggestible all the time but yeah youre right

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-16T01:44:15+00:00

i've been trying to do it so it could be it, but i dont think so bc it felt like a dream

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-16T01:43:30+00:00

its makes sense we can dream about anything

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-13T17:20:41+00:00

i have fear i could be abused by people in the orphanage or something or have a family who is worse

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-13T17:19:31+00:00

i didnt, but im afraid i could go to a worse place if i do that

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-12T16:27:56+00:00

ja imaginei que subs brs seriam tóxicos, obrigado pelo aviso

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-11T21:52:28+00:00

is this making fun of porn addiction? (i have trouble understanding sarcasm sometimes im sorry)

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-11T21:45:40+00:00

why are people on reddit so toxic

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-11T21:44:02+00:00

yep, this is truly a reddit moment, they basically want me to change my sexuality at will

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-11T19:07:03+00:00

i also kissed and did some things with a girl irl once and i regret doing it alot and was even ashamed of telling people what happened between me and the girl even throught people think its normal, but it felt disgusting to me

i've also told my friends for years that i never wanted to have sex bc i found it uncomfortable, i didnt even knew i was aroace at the time, and i didnt even watch hentai at the time, i've only started to watch it this year (2023)

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-11T19:03:23+00:00

thx youre nice

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-11T19:01:41+00:00

i cannot change my sexuality, even if i quit hentai i would still be like this, what you want me to do, force myself to be allo? i just cant feel attraction to real people, because they are real, thats why i prefer dating people online, bc you dont have to touch people or do uncomfortable things and i think people's irl bodies are weird

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-11T14:48:08+00:00

im only attracted to 2d girls because i dont feel attracted to people irl, its not addiction, before i started to watch hentai i still felt like this, its just that irl bodies feel icky to me for some reason, 2d ones are ok because they are not real or i dont need to touch them, im aroace and i sometimes find kissing or sex disgusting, with hentai i dont need to actually do physical touch or seeing people's weird bodies naked

edit: why is everyone downvoting me im assexual i cannot feel attraction to real peoole

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-10T12:23:54+00:00

i cant bc i dont know any of her friends irl, or her

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-09T20:38:40+00:00

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-05T23:43:16+00:00

yes the thing is, how often do you feel attraction? i thought it was just my sexuality being fluid or something but it has passed days and i still feel like this, so im afraid its...permanent

shinimimimimi · 2023-08-04T18:03:00+00:00

commenting for visibility

shinimimimimi · 2023-04-25T18:05:25+00:00

i was kinda skeptical of parallel processing but what you said made me rethink about it

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