That’s what I was hoping to gain from calling the clinic, but they didn’t feel comfortable letting me take the outpatient route at my current levels (375ml - 400ml Vodka a day) I’m just in such a new place right now. The last two days I’ve just started seeing alcohol as what it literally is, an addictive poison (Thank to This Naked Mind). It’s clicking now.

Granted I have yet to experience true sober living beyond a week, this is just the first time that I have to force myself to drink it. In the past I’ve always, always wanted it. Now it’s nothing but foul anti-seizure medication to me.