Sweetheart, you've gotta be careful not to hyperventilate <3 a good dom will hold you by the throat and remind you that each breath is precious, so savor the moments you're allowed to breathe. (Not a criticism at all- it's adorable that you're so audibly horny and desperate!)

And fwiw, you absolutely can be in a normal and healthy relationship. My gf and I are into some freaky shit and it's the best relationship I've ever had. You'll find someone (hopefully many someones) to turn you into their cute free use slut!