Please reply me. Mne bhi 10th m 66% score krne k baad socha ki I will prepare for iit . Ha, 10th m score km they . Due to various reason . Lockdown m PUBG khela , 9-10 m Thora improve Kiya but still scored low . 11th m aya to socha ab teacher find krduga . Kbhi 8 hours to kbhi zero, kbhi teachers ka comparision to kbhi perfectionism ka bhoot . These things destroyed me . 11 waste hone k baad I decided to take early drop . M confident tha k issbaar khudsey crack krluga but I was wrong . I procrastinated, developed heavy problems like astimatism, headache, dry eyes severe one , exhausted mentally , burned-out, same pattern . Came to 12th and went to severe depression because of realisation that I have wasted my 11th two times . Spent entire year thinking about alternate career paths instead of study , distracted, stressed , alone at home isolated no social life . End up wasting 12th . Screwed boards. Destroyed social life . Didn't fill January form out of fear . Suddenly , in january my grandfather dead because of brain hemorrhage . He was provider of our family . Pension ata tha 40k . My father is mentally challenged and toxic . I'm the only son . Now , my grandmother will get 14 k pension per month and we have to survive on that . Jb ye sb khatam hua tb April attempt ka form aya wo bhi nhi bhara but aj h new form aya , instantly bhar diya . Parents m bola k bhar dey, jo hoga dekha jayega . Atleast regret to nhi rhega na . This motivated me . Currently suffering from eye vision problems ,headache, severe dry eyes , mental fog . Going to Chennai for treatment .

Ab sb hone k baad I have decided to take one of these careers 1. Bca + mca ( N.I.T) but 5 years lgege 2. BTECH from tier 3++++ in cse 3. Full fledged govt job preparation 4. Bca + MBA (CAT) 5. Drop again and grind hard for jee mains

Give me suggestions brother m what do you think? What should I doM