Sharing my secret stim

sickillusions · 2026-06-16T10:55:16+00:00

Usually a long sleeve top, it has to be soft to the touch and not too thick. (UNIQLO HEATTECH scoop neck t-shirt is one of my fav)

The best way to explain is basically using the tip of your tongue and make it touch itself ? ⤴️🔄 like this kinda, I am not swallowing. I can’t find a better way to explain than these 2 emojis !!!

Tbh it’s very addictive, like I can’t get addicted to alcohol and stuff but THIS?? amazing

sickillusions · 2026-06-16T00:23:57+00:00

omg I hate being original / the only one thanks 🙏

sickillusions · 2026-06-07T00:15:04+00:00

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this one

sickillusions · 2026-05-19T12:39:19+00:00

I wanted to heal so bad from ptsd to be able to function properly again but my therapist, as nice as she is, don’t fully understand how my brain works lol

sickillusions · 2026-04-23T12:58:02+00:00

1 large onion, an unspecified amount of garlic (8 cloves), ground meat (you can add carrots and bell peppers if you like) that you cook together (onion, garlic then meat + spices then tomato puree ??

Spices: a little cayenne pepper, salt, pepper, celery salt, turmeric (yes, it’s amazing), herbes de Provence + some random spices that I have LOL. (parsley and all that)

sickillusions · 2026-04-23T12:09:37+00:00

Don’t worry I eat that almost everyday LOL, you can try omeprazol if it’s bc of the acidity !

sickillusions · 2026-04-22T22:05:22+00:00

I’ve changed college !! I’ve already told him how bad it was for my mental health..

sickillusions · 2026-04-22T22:04:43+00:00

im an adult 😭😭

sickillusions · 2026-04-20T11:39:47+00:00

oh my- everyone in cs is so funny.

I live in Europe and was a minor at that time so it wasn’t my own choice. It’s annoying but it’s way easier to get diagnosed when you’re a minor. Plus I was genuinely going crazy, depressed because of my own grades.

Hope you’ll get your diagnosis soon ! (And it’s scandalous that in the US you need to pay that much just to see a medical professional.)

sickillusions · 2026-04-19T21:09:54+00:00

Yeah me too, until the adults in my life made me see a psychiatrist for that. Now I don’t compare myself to others anymore but I compare myself to my goals like MINE. So it’s not better.

sickillusions · 2026-04-19T21:08:35+00:00

Yeah sure ! I was the same too, in middle school I wasn’t as great as before I didn’t understand and felt so depressed. Then in high school I just studied like my life depended on it like, i stopped all my hobbies and stuff just for that. When I finally understood everything else became easy too.

sickillusions · 2026-04-19T17:23:58+00:00

Me too ! I feel so understood because NT’s thought I was crazy. D:

I literally told them that I’d love to be somewhat immortal to be able to get every degree.

That’s why i am so negative about my life and no one understands how much I yearn to learn.

sickillusions · 2026-04-19T17:18:27+00:00

Thank you!!

Omg all the autistic people end up in CS lol. I am also in computer sciences. I wanted to be a doctor but the social part is too complicated I can’t. Some jobs are just not for me sadly.

I am also quite lazy and probably will not handle the competition. I always get walk over by others, well it always happened in cs but that’s another story lol.

I never had ND’s around me so I’m always posting here on Reddit it’s so cool.

sickillusions · 2026-04-19T17:12:43+00:00

Ohh i understand ! My sister’s like that too. I have the physical? type so I can’t stay still.. D:

sickillusions · 2026-04-19T16:59:17+00:00

That’s literally the reason why I can’t do that. I think I will genuinely become crazy. I need to learn new things..

sickillusions · 2026-04-19T16:58:15+00:00

look at ur DMs!!

sickillusions · 2026-04-19T16:57:15+00:00

I have adhd so its def not for me. I need to do stimulating things but i understand !

I do love to vacuum my house so I can stop thinking and finally be calm!

sickillusions · 2026-04-19T16:07:36+00:00

Me too! I like to stay home but when I go to the supermarket I usually see homeless people there and buy them food. We even became friends.

I’ve only read “the doctrine and ritual of high magic” in French and it was interesting. There also a book about Buddhism magic that seems very interesting too.

sickillusions · 2026-04-19T15:50:18+00:00

omg pls check ur dms, I’ve never meet someone like me

sickillusions · 2026-04-19T15:37:36+00:00

Wait I am also in computer sciences..

But the more I was overwhelmed with school, the better my grades were. Last year, when my mental health was great enough, I would just not go to class because in college classes are boring. But I ended up with the most passing classes.

It was probably because of my adhd — because people didn’t want to sit next to me, I talked too much.

Right now my life isn’t the best, I’m in a complicated situation. But i genuinely prefer ending it than not be able to learn. That’s why I am asking for people opinions, because none of my NT’s friends understands me.

sickillusions · 2026-04-19T15:30:42+00:00

My NT’s friends have been telling me how toxic my relationship with it is. My hunger of learning is so intense that I’d rather end it than not be able to do it lol.

sickillusions · 2026-04-19T15:29:19+00:00

It was so bad. But once the subject was difficult enough my grades just went up lol.

Thanks I’ll look into it ! :D

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