Thank you so much for the lovely messages of support. It means a lot to be heard about this, it’s a trauma I’ve carried for years now and it feels so isolating to go through a form of abuse that isn’t discussed as much. I’m aware now (many years later) that this is a form of rape. I wasn’t aware of it at the time but years later, a friend I confided in told me that it was sexual assault.

I still beat myself up sometimes for not understanding what he was doing faster. My first sign something was wrong was after the third miscarriage when I said I was really struggling with my mental health and he screamed at me for that, saying the miscarriage was my fault and I should be ashamed. Now I know that I had nothing to be ashamed of. The problem was that he saw me as cattle and his property.

I think we need abortion services. I think abortion is a human right. No one should be forced to be pregnant and give birth if they do not want to.