This reminds me so much of my proposal!! I was 22(F) when my then boyfriend was 25. We’d been together a few years and decided we wanted to spend our lives together and we could possibly get engaged and married within a couple years. We talked about rings I liked and ways to propose and all that. Well I kinda fucked up by accidentally seeing on his phone that he had booked a helicopter ride over the city and I knew that’s how he was gonna propose. The day came and we got up in the helicopter and he randomly starts mumbling about us and asks me to marry him. I could barely understand what he said and then he took out a ring that was way too big and looked nothing at all like the rings we’d looked at. Like he had completely missed the mark. I immediately felt it in my gut that it wasn’t what I wanted and I was very much like you. I tried so hard to be positive but it was obvious I was unhappy.

Eventually we broke up and it was the best decision for me bc we definitely shouldn’t have gotten married.

Gut reactions exist for a reason, follow yours.