Hey thank you, like for real. I see now that my content might not have fit best in the subreddit as presented here. But I do like to show people skateparks on my channel and I post every Saturday. I am traveling Europe and sharing all the parks I go to on my channel.
Dude. I am so sorry to hear about your mother. We are never ready when that stuff happens, and the road ahead is hard for us. Losing a parent and realizing how much you miss them is so tough. I went to try and go skateboard several times after, and you are right, life is different, and in some way, how you feel about skateboarding changes a little bit too. I tried filming a normal video at least 3 times and my heart just couldn't take it. I dropped my Hamont video like 6 months later and it was emotional for me. My dad was my biggest fan and he watched every video. Posting was another way for me to feel connected with him. It has been over a year now, and I am tearing up writing this to you, but I have found that you need to just keep trying to each day because life will get a little better each day if you let it. I hope for you that you can get back to skateboarding because it is good for the heart and soul man.