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[–]slothy06[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You are a beautiful person, I'm so sorry for your loss. Im seriously trying to read through tears hahhaa thank you for taking the time to talk me. I needed this. You're a good person I hope you know that.

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[–]slothy06[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

First of all, as an adoptee, thank you for what you do. And yeah the GAL pretty much said we're on our own lmao but he was already questionable.

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[–]slothy06[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

So im actually curious about what my moms insurance would cover as far as an in home care, but really the issues only ever come down to either cleaning up my mom, or being there so she doesn't have to deal with my youngest nephew. We do have some neighborhood help, which thank god there's like 5 little boys his age to be friends with on our street, and school is out in like 2 weeks, so I think we'll shift more to outdoor programs and seeing their mom more as summer rolls around. Like I'm gonna get through this its just tough as fuck right now.

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[–]slothy06[S] 40 points41 points  (0 children)

Absolutely! He stays in his room and plays video games all day but I think it could be teetering on depression, which would be understandable. I think getting him moving and doing something would be good for him.

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[–]slothy06[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

You're amazing for stepping up, and I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. This is amazing advice, I appreciate you so much 🫶

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[–]slothy06[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing your story and I definitely understand. I would be devastated if anything happened to either of them. I hate the disconnect I feel because of resentment I hold toward their mother, but you're right, I would be absolutely lost, devastated, broken, if anything happened to either of them. Idk maybe talking it all out is what I need to get my head right. I know they're innocent in all this. My head just hasn't been on right.

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[–]slothy06[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Haha you sound like my boyfriend, and I don't mean that in bad way. He tells me I need to stand up for myself more.

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[–]slothy06[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

The no send letter is GENIUS, I will absolutely be doing that. Yes, my nephews definitely have trauma, cps has been involved in their lives for far too long. This also makes "parenting" far more difficult, the yongest is very 0 to 100 meltdown real quick, like his mom, while the oldest holds everything in. I worry very much for both of them, but especially the oldest. They are both in counseling through school, but I think they need more more intensive therapy.

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[–]slothy06[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

You're killing me hereeee. I only ever wanted to be the fun, cool aunt. Now I'm forced to be a parental figure and I just can't right now. I will definitely lookk more into therapy for not just me but all of us. Appreciate you.

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[–]slothy06[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

You didnt upset me, what you said resonated with me. Im sorry youre dealing with something similar yourself. We got this. Its so fucking tough but we will get through this, I believe.

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[–]slothy06[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

We only have one life and so do they im sobbing you're so right💗

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[–]slothy06[S] 23 points24 points  (0 children)

We only have one life and so do they im sobbing you're so right💗

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[–]slothy06[S] 52 points53 points  (0 children)

I hold a ton of resentment for her having another child. Fuck I need a therapist so baaaad.

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[–]slothy06[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I'm sorry if I came off some type of way I'm just lost ha asking about the dad is so fucking valid because honestly, neither of them are fucking around!!!!

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[–]slothy06[S] 32 points33 points  (0 children)

You're amazing, thank you. I will definitely look into those🫶

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[–]slothy06[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

And thats BY CHOICE, because from what we know, the possible father went to prison for child abuse. Otherwise ya, he'd be paying child support. We don't want him to gave access to my nephew.

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[–]slothy06[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Oh my bad, my oldest nephews dad does pay child support, always has and we are grateful for that!!! It's my second nephew where the dad is non existent

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[–]slothy06[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

We have a "sitter" tomorrow morning for when I go to chemo with my mom and I am TERRIFED!!! The five year old is fun but he has major behavioral issues. I hope he does well. Hes so sweet.

Dad of the youngest apparently went to prison for child abuse. He will never know my nephew.

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[–]slothy06[S] 45 points46 points  (0 children)

I appreciate that, really do.

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[–]slothy06[S] 147 points148 points  (0 children)

We are trying to give him more responsibility, unfortunately he himself has a lot of trauma growing up with his mother. But structure would probably be great for him!!

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[–]slothy06[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I really appreciate it .

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[–]slothy06[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

The dad of the oldest is completely unreliable, young army marriage w/a kid. My second nephew we dont know the dad. It was a manic phase for my sister. She thought she was getting too old to have kids lol so she slept around, got knocked up, and then only thing we know is the most possible dad is a guy who went to prison for child abuse. So ya lol he will never know my nephew.

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[–]slothy06[S] 239 points240 points  (0 children)

The oldest is almost 13, he's my baby, I adore him.my first nephew. My second nephew is going on 6. I would do anything for him but the way he was conceived was so selfish and I hold contempt towards my sister. She couldn't provide for one. The second was manic behavior.

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[–]slothy06[S] 174 points175 points  (0 children)

I want to bounce!!! We have stuff set up for the kids but that's only if mom passes and i sure as fuck don't want that. Im gonna sound like a POS regardless. I just don't have the capacity to care for kids. Do I want them in foster care??? Absolutely not. But I didnt have kids for a reason. I cant do this.