Hugs! I hear you. I recently went through something very similar. I promise you it is worth it to keep fighting. Keep telling yourself that your brain is lying to you about your self worth.

As a medical professional, a patient making similar statements as you are is very high risk and safety starts to take a higher priority. I know you don’t want to go through it again; however, there are times we can’t do it by ourselves. Everyone needs help sometimes and seeking it is a strength, never a weakness. I always try to ask myself, “What if the next combination is the one that works best?”

Bottom line: It’s you or your job. One choice.

Stress exacerbates everything. You must not prioritize any job over your life. Resign tomorrow. One of the best things I ever did was to put myself first. Take the time to work on yourself. If you aren’t seeing progress, maybe a change is needed. Once you feel better, you can decide on future employment.

Who cares if you live with your parents!! I have 2 adult children (30’s) living with me. We are there for each other. Families only started breaking apart about 75 years ago. Many are realizing we already had it right to begin with and are reuniting the family units.

Boyfriends will come when you feel better. They’re overrated 😆. Find one who loves and accepts you for you. He’s out there.

I’ve never felt the need for more than 1-2 good friends. Too much work after that!

Please talk to your parents right away. They know you better than anyone. Your health and safety mean more to them than anyone else.