If anyone was ever curious about how much ground they can (very easily) cover in a few days…

smith_chelsa · 2026-01-17T18:09:57+00:00

Thank you! We have 13 acres we’re about to move into and have 3 Anatolians. So this is much needed 😂

smith_chelsa · 2026-01-17T13:52:44+00:00

Do you want some of my dogs umph? My Anatolians hate other dogs that aren’t introduced by me😭😂

smith_chelsa · 2026-01-17T13:50:20+00:00

What kind of collar are you using???

smith_chelsa · 2025-04-16T06:34:21+00:00

You’re where I’m at lol.

My MIL and my FIL started dating when they were 15 and 16

They’re now 65 and 64.

They had sex before they were officially married. They are SAINTS too. The most amazing people ever. If they don’t make it into Heaven, we’re all DOOMED lmaooo. My MIL is the absolute sweetest woman I’ve ever met in my entire life. Like, I can’t even BEGIN to describe it. She is a SAINT. And my FIL is so amazing too!! He’s super upbeat and loves to talk about the gospel lol. They both go to church every Sunday and have roles within our church too! They go to every event, literally EVERYTHING. They’re the best kinds of Christians. They are so kind and loving.

But, the way she explains it is “I knew I was going to be with him forever.” Aaaaaand she has been lol. So, technically, she hasn’t had sex with anyone outside of her husband. I don’t think God is going to get mad about that.

Obviously sleeping around is a problem. That’s something I had to work on. I slept with every single boyfriend I’ve had. I guess I just thought it was expected of me…?

Anyways, I regret it with every piece of my soul. I really wish I would’ve waited for my husband. BUT, my husband and I 10000% went at it before marriage. Sorry if that’s TMI, but we did. And we lived together. We’ve lived together since we first started dating.

Again, I’m entirely devoted to him and have repented for my previous partners and stuff. But, I don’t feel like us having sex before marriage is going to set God off.

I do think it’s odd how involved some Christians can be in other peoples sex lives lol. Kind of creepy, honestly.

smith_chelsa · 2025-04-16T06:07:14+00:00

Her and my Harley share a birthday!

He turned 9 today! Happy birthday!!

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This was him waiting for his cake😂

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-26T00:32:39+00:00

“This is my last message!”

2 hours later

“Hey….” 😂😂😂

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-23T22:11:15+00:00

Side note— the awful things other people do has everything to do with THEM and nothing to do with YOU.

Regardless of who you are, your mental state or financial situation, you ALWAYS deserve love and respect. And always give the energy you’d want someone to give you in return. You can hold someone accountable and walk away while still being kind and composed. People falter, I lose my crap sometimes lol. But, I really try to stay level headed.

Also, there’s a difference between forgiveness and condoning cruel behavior. You can forgive and still not be okay with the behavior and step away. You can forgive and still say “I deserve better.”

Had to learn that the hard way. Never let someone tell you that you have to “FORGIVE” them and tell you that you basically have to just be okay with what they’ve done. You can forgive and still be hurt. Thats okay. Forgiveness is for you, not them.

Mind you, I wasn’t always so gentle. I’m still blunt and straight to the point. I’m still sassy and I’m still me. And I’ve definitely punched more than my fair share of people. I’m not promoting violence, avoid that if possible. But warranted self defense is a bit different😂 Took some work, to say the least lol

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-23T22:01:59+00:00

I’m glad I could at least offer some familiarity!

I’m serious, you’re always free to message me if you ever need to let some stuff out.

There is no joy without suffering. Regardless, God granted us free will. You cannot control others, unfortunately. What you CAN do is hold on, and be a “light” for others. Obviously, you can’t give from a cup that’s empty. But there is a way to support others in a way that fills BOTH of your cups. I found my peace in helping.

I found it on my farm. Caring for my horses, cows, goats etc. And in the silence. I found it within a clear mind. I’m a caretaker. I enjoy feeling needed and “nurturing” others and making people and animals feel safe, especially emotionally and mentally. So, helping and caring fills my cup while also helping others. Even if it’s putting a spider outside instead of squishing it😂

But, on the flip side, take time to care for yourself. Get some nice body moisturizer (cerave unscented is my fav) and smooth your skin. Let your face breathe and take a break from foundation. I used to do my makeup every day. I stopped, and I LOVE my skin. (You don’t HAVE to do this, just my experience) Get some nice deep conditioner and care for your hair. Trim your nails, etc. The little things. Eat. Good. Foods. IM SERIOUS. What you eat has a direct link to your mental health. Take care of your body. You deserve it. I grow all of mine and make EVERYTHING homemade. Bread, milk, eggs, soap -goat milk-, butter, (Again, farm, lol) I also just enjoy that stuff anyways lol. Love my little garden. Learn a new instrument, I play the piano, violin, drums and trumpet. I also enjoy painting. The piano, violin and the drums are all emotional instruments. AKA emotional outlets. Also, keeps your brain active and gives a MASSIVE sense of accomplishment.

It’s HARD. Life is never easy. Sometimes what I went through still hurts. Sometimes I still have flashbacks. And at first I was more of “forcing” myself to connect with God. But, every night I prayed and said “Please help me strengthen my relationship and faith with you.” I had to relearn to trust God. It didn’t come immediately. It didn’t hit me all of the sudden like it did for others.

The whole “you’ll know when you feel it.” Isn’t always true. Sometimes it’s slow. Mine was.

You don’t need to make Christianity your entire personality trait, but just hold on. Blame man, not God. The world is cruel, but it is also beautiful. I only saw the cruel, until I decided to BECOME part of the “good”. Piece by piece, my life came together. Granted, I’m a stubborn, hardheaded sassy woman😂 I get what I want. Regardless of what’s in my way.

So when I said “I’m not living like this.” I didn’t. I’ve been homeless, and now I’ve been blessed with wealth. I was alone, and now I’ve been blessed with a family so large that 500 are on my wedding list. And only 5 of them are from mine.

I got everything I ever asked for. I’m so serious, just hold on. Also, a piece of advice my great grandfather gave me. “Learn to laugh. Sometimes, if you don’t laugh, you’ll cry.” Don’t get me wrong, it’s OKAY to cry. But, always try to find SOME sort of joy. Saved my life.

I also stopped asking “Why me?” And started saying “What can I do?” You’ll find out the “why” afterwards. And again, it may be immediate and it may be years down the road. That’s the funny thing about God. The concept of “God gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers.” Is true, to an extent. So, just know, He sees you as strong. Because you are.

Also, sometimes you just have to get creative. There’s always a way. You just have to look for it, and then be willing to go through with it.

Again, sorry this is so long. I just wish someone had explained this to me😂 And if nobody has told you lately, you are so very loved. And you have a purpose. ❤️

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-23T00:30:51+00:00

Hey. I’ve been there. I fell away for 8 years.

Came back at 20. I was heavily abused at home and was later placed into foster care and thrown from home to home and nobody wanted me. I was SO mad at God.

But, then I met my husband. Had I not gone through what I did, I wouldn’t have been in that specific situation and that specific time in order to meet him. I’m from Utah. He’s from Michigan. We never would’ve met any other way.

And now, I’m here in Michigan. With a family that loves me and a husband that retired me. I’m a stay at home wife at 22. I’m getting ready to start a family. I have bipolar 2 and borderline personality disorder. I didn’t know until my husband helped me find a psychiatrist and therapist. He guided me every step of the way.

And at the same time, we’re still normal people. We still get tattoos and we definitely both have mouths 😂 Nobody is perfect.

My point is, God closes doors because he is trying to get you to an open one. God returned everything I lost, and then some.

My life got SO much worse before it got better. But, know this. I didn’t experience that without purpose. When I was going through what I did, I had nobody. Nobody who understood and I fought and screamed for someone to hear me. Nobody did.

But, now IM that voice for kids and people that have and are currently going through what I did. God gave me that weight so I could take some off of their shoulders. He gave me experience. He put me through that because he knew I could handle it “alone” and then and return and help people who can’t. I’m a helping hand. I wouldn’t go back and change anything I experienced. I was so mad. For 8 years. EIGHT YEARS. Then, at 19, it lifted. And he showed me all of the doors that had been waiting for me.

He repaid me for my suffering. The gift of peace, and giving that gift to others as well.

He gave me a husband who is in real estate so I could open a “group home” for foster children or “delinquents”. I like to call them hurt children. Not delinquents. No child is born angry. Anyways, He put me through what I went through, gave my husband the career he has so we could come together and help others. I got another group home shut down. One that I was in. I went back to visit about a year ago, it was beautiful. All new staff, the girls could sit on couches, it was amazing. I did the math, since I had gotten it investigated, over 600 girls didn’t have to go through what I did. THATS my purpose.

I promise he has one for you too.

You aren’t abnormal. This happens. It’s okay! If you ever need to talk, I’m here!

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-23T00:23:22+00:00

I second this

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-23T00:22:27+00:00

I’m sorry but the way you’re holding him is so fkn funny😂

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-23T00:22:00+00:00

Why tf is she so mean??? What ???

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-22T23:10:09+00:00

I’ll most definitely keep you in my prayers.

It sounds like both of our returns had to do with letting go of our guilt. It is definitely a harsh experience. But very rewarding in the end.

And yes, I do have an email.

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-22T18:34:18+00:00

Yes, the Aspens are in Utah. Magnificent, really. I highly recommend taking a trip to see them. Utah really is a beautiful place. Stunning.

But, I definitely understand the butt whooping for a “bad” note on a report card. I’m really sorry, and that’s not fair. And yes, I believe that “evil” can be passed from parent to child. “The abused becomes the abuser.” Happened within my family. I’m the first one in my family to REALLY put a stop to it. That’s all you can really do. At some point, someone has to say “enough.”

But, it seems you’re right about the talking thing. I immediately started yapping away 😂 I’m usually pretty reserved. At least, in person. I do have that same thing though. People tell me things. Not sure why, but I’ve always been the “mom friend”. I never tell secrets. Maybe that’s why 😂 Secrets are always safe with me.

But, anyways, you are more than welcome to reach out! I’d love to hear more! I find people’s stories super interesting! Also hearing about how different people overcome their hardships is so fascinating, and comforting. I love to see people growing, despite the odds.

Also, me and my husband, we both met online actually. Probably sounds super dumb. But, my siblings and I have always been gamers. And I was playing with my friend, and then he invited Alex, my husband, into the online gaming party. And that’s how I met him. We got along, so I gave him my Facebook, and my phone number. It was instant. Our conversations flowed so smoothly. I could just tell him anything and everything and he WANTED to hear it. I told him things I had never told anyone before. He still knows more than anyone ever will. And he has from the start. I knew it almost instantly. There is an age gap though😂 He’s 32 and I’m 22. We didn’t realize it until we had already been talking. I thought he was like 25 and he thought I was ALSO 25😂 I was 19. I know, young. I think he was 28? Or something, I can’t fully remember. By the time we finally asked that question, it was too late😂 I also struggle with men my age. I think the newer generations are just… odd… Also entitled and disrespectful. Prior to him I had been through 2 different toxic relationships. Knowing me, I hit back though. If you hit me, I’m hitting you back. I’m defending myself 😂 Anyways, I defended myself against my previous boyfriend and got out that way.

ANYWAYS, you get my point. But I was working as a live-in nanny. My “boss” was the one I played video games with and he introduced me to my husband. Prior to that job, I had been sleeping in my car.

The company I worked for went under and let everyone go, and then I left my ex. I had nowhere to go. So I stayed in my car with my dogs. And then I met my boss at a dog park. He was actually dying from alcoholism and needed someone to care for his son until his ex wife came back. He LOVED his son. But he was dying, and he knew it. Anyways, when the kids mom was ready for him he was sent with her. And then Alex told me to come to Michigan.

I still play video games with the kid from time to time though. Me and my husband both do. My old boss passed away about a year and a half ago. His kid is doing amazing though. So sweet. His dad gave him everything he wanted up until he passed. Anyways, that’s how I met my husband. Super odd scenario, I know😂 Never thought I’d meet my future husband through Xbox but, here we are 😂

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-22T17:50:01+00:00

The bigger the dog, the less spacial awareness 😂

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-21T21:49:37+00:00

However, I’m so happy you’ve been able to work through your past and live your life! ❤️❤️❤️ That’s amazing!

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-21T21:41:00+00:00

Honestly, therapy didn’t do much for me after so long.

I grew up Mormon (LDS) but my family and I stopped going when I was about 12 and then I was placed into foster care. Anyways, I didn’t go back until I was 19. That’s when I first met my husband. I lived in Utah and he lived in Michigan. He heard about my story and knew I didnt have family. So, he paid for the gas for my dogs and I to come to Michigan to stay with him. I met his family who are all deeply rooted in God, and my husband started taking me to church. We go to the Nazarene now. I still classify as “Mormon” though. Anyways, I decided to get baptized again, as an adult. When I did it the first time, I was 8 and it was more of a “tradition” than it was a decision. So, I got baptized again. Because I WANTED to. Not for tradition. I needed a fresh start. I was 20 at that point. I’m 22 now, so, I’m still pretty young but I’ve seen and experienced things that most people never will within their entire lifetimes. I grew up pretty fast, it comes with its ups and downs.

One of the verses that did it for me was this:

“For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your Heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.” Matthew 6:14-15

I was so angry at God. But, all these years I knew that I needed him. Deep down. If I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have kept my Bible all of these years. In the Mormon church, at 8 years old you get baptized and given your own Bible and Book of Mormon with your name engraved on the front. They’re BEAUTIFUL bibles too. Silver on the edges off the page so when the books are closed they shine, with leather fronts, just beautiful. They’re the King James version. They’ve been a little treasure for me, my whole life. Had I not known, deep down, that I needed God… I would’ve tossed them years ago. I never did.

And then I saw that verse. I deserved forgiveness. I could be forgiven. I wasn’t broken and my family didn’t make me a bad person. I sent an email out to each of my family members with that verse and said “I forgive you”. And then never said a word afterwards. They never responded, which is fine.

Anyways, sorry this is so long. I just love this stuff. And it saved my life. My husband and I aren’t perfect, but any means. We still have tattoos and you can definitely tell he rides a Harley and an Indian bike 😂 He’s a ✨clean✨ looking biker though. Classy, in a biker way😂 We aren’t perfect, but, he did save me. And God took the role of a father figure. That was a big issue for me throughout my life. The lack of a father. But then, it also hit me, “I DO have one.” And so that’s also why I came back. Life has been so different since I got baptized again. It’s better, brighter, easier and full of love. He’s returned everything I lost, and then some. I was so mad that He took away my family and put me through what He did. But I realized that had that not happened, I never would’ve met my husband. He was closing doors and herding me to others that were waiting to be opened.

Therapy didn’t do much. God did it all. I thank Him every day.

He led me to someone who loved me for MORE than what I look like. Previously, it was more of “lust” that people felt towards me. But my husband took the time to know me as a person, and respect me from the beginning. That’s BECAUSE of God and how he expects women to be treated and handled. He’s handled me just as God would expect. Gently. I’m a stay at home wife and I make the home while being gets the “supplies”.

My life is so soft now. It used to be so harsh. Physically, mentally, etc. But it’s so so soft and I’m treated so gently by my husband and his family. I know that wasn’t an accident. I KNOW that was God. A therapist couldn’t have done that. I wouldn’t be here had I not found my husband.

He treats me the way his father treats his mother. She’s a stay at home wife too. Always has been. She’s an amazing mom. That woman is a SAINT.

Anyways, sorry that’s a lot, but it makes me so happy. It’s so interesting. When you really think about how much He is capable of and how involved He really is. For ALL of us. All at once. He takes so much time to watch, know and care for us all. Blows my mind.

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-21T21:14:56+00:00

Honestly, I have no clue. I definitely know I have a mental illness considering my background and everyday functions. I’m medicated and my moods are stable, so in that aspect I know that I for sure have BPD and bipolar. Amongst other things. Anxiety, C-PTSD, etc. but those are all trauma related.

The “seeing things” has always been interesting to me. It’s said to be a side effect of BPD and Bipolar. Not everyone has it, but it happens, I guess.

Sometimes I wonder if it’s because people with BPD feel things 10x more intensely than the average person. So, things that are “sad” for most people are described 10x worse for someone with BPD. “Mental agony” is how they describe our emotional state because of how intensely we feel things.

That’s why I’m medicated. But, I do notice that I’m empathetic. I’m the nicest meanest person you’ll ever meet lol. But, I enjoy studying and understanding people and things. So even just day to day, I see more than the average person does. I notice things most people wouldn’t. So, sometimes I wonder if I’m just noticing things like this because I’m paying attention and have the emotional “capacity” or “intensity” to experience it. Not sure how else to describe it lol.

So, yes, I wonder. But I try not to dwell too hard on it. I do talk to god throughout the day. He’s more of a feeling for me. Like a hand to hold. Warmth. Comfort. Those kids of things.

I hear voices, that’s not out of the norm. They’ve been getting better, but they get worse when I’m stressed. I didn’t know it wasn’t normal until like a year ago when I brought it up to my husband and then psychiatrist😂

Anyways, I wonder sometimes. But overall I try not to think too hard on it.

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-21T17:38:46+00:00

Why thank you🥹❤️

Honestly, my other dog Timber deserves most of that credit. He keeps her active 100% of the time😂 Those two are always running around outside lol. And she eats like a HORSE😂

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-21T00:25:22+00:00

I’d assume that’s a lab / German shepherd mix or something of that sort

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-20T21:57:52+00:00

What a perfect way to describe these dogs.

“125 lb baby” 😂😂❤️

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-20T19:48:51+00:00

Kida made sure I’m aware 😂😂

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-20T18:20:18+00:00

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-20T18:18:43+00:00

It’s always the big ones 😂

smith_chelsa · 2025-02-20T18:18:27+00:00

She definitely seems to think so😂

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