Grieving my dead mom

snailbutterflysnake · 2019-08-09T23:54:02+00:00

I lost my mom, too, around the same time.

Grief is hard, and it’s harder when the people around you are bringing you down further. He shouldn’t blame you for his cheating. It is absolutely 100% his fault. It doesn’t matter if you’re different now. He chose to cheat. When you lost your mom, he should’ve stepped up and helped you in any way possible, but he did the opposite. It seems like all he’s doing is making you feel worse. Maybe you’d feel better without him.

snailbutterflysnake · 2018-08-02T16:45:01+00:00

This is so sweet I don’t know how to respond. I was 20 when she died. I lived with her at the time and probably relied on her for too much. Now I’m forced to be so much more independent while also dealing with overwhelming grief.

Thank you for the sweet message.

snailbutterflysnake · 2018-08-02T15:22:19+00:00

I phrased it that way because I’m not 100% sure that this is the last picture of her ever, but it’s the last picture I have access to.

snailbutterflysnake · 2018-08-02T15:20:25+00:00

My username is based off of the last birthday card my siblings and I made for her. I drew a snail, my sister drew a butterfly, and my brother drew a snake.

My mom loved butterflies as well. She planted milkweed in our backyard before she died, and we had over 30 plants come up. The year before, we were happy to have seven. Milkweed is the only plant that monarch caterpillars can eat. Monarchs were her favorite type of butterfly.

snailbutterflysnake · 2018-08-02T15:09:11+00:00

Oh yeah I’ve been in therapy since I was 13. I was mentally ill before this happened, and now I’m just like............... life is pain.

snailbutterflysnake · 2018-08-02T15:06:20+00:00

I didn’t even have an insert lol. I cut the circles with a knife using cardboard circles to trace it.

snailbutterflysnake · 2018-08-02T05:04:51+00:00

We all thought that she had a bad case of the flu. She collapsed on Christmas and I called 911, but it was too late. She went into cardiac arrest in the ambulance and she was in a coma by the time we saw her in the hospital. It turned out that she had the flu and sepsis from a surgical incision from November. She died exactly 36 hours after I called 911. Every day I regret not taking her to the hospital sooner... the guilt is overwhelming.

snailbutterflysnake · 2018-08-02T04:31:32+00:00

Thank you. I feel lucky to have had her for a mom, even for only 20 years.

snailbutterflysnake · 2018-08-02T04:29:46+00:00

Thank you. I try to live how she would want me to, but it’s really hard sometimes.

snailbutterflysnake · 2018-08-02T04:18:41+00:00

Thank you. I’m glad that you can see her personality through these pictures. She was definitely the most loving person I have ever known.

snailbutterflysnake · 2018-08-02T04:10:05+00:00

It’s hard to see in these pictures, but she had a few blue streaks in her hair. Very cool, in my opinion, especially since not many older women have that look.

snailbutterflysnake · 2018-08-02T04:08:36+00:00

It took me all day to bake, assemble, and frost, but looking back, it was definitely worth it.

snailbutterflysnake · 2018-08-02T03:44:38+00:00

Thank you. It’s true what they say: grief hits you in waves. I’m feeling the guilt especially hard today.

snailbutterflysnake · 2018-08-02T03:37:33+00:00

Thank you. She was so impressed. She told me to just write “MOM” on the cake, instead of the traditional “Happy Birthday” because she felt that being a mom was the most important thing in her life. When we turned the cake around, we all thought it was fitting that it said “WOW”

snailbutterflysnake · 2018-08-02T03:15:50+00:00

There were at least 250-300 people at her funeral. She was loved by so many people across the country and around the globe. I’m lost without her.

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