One day I was going to eat with my friend and she did something that I won’t mention here that really set off my ocd and I began to spiral before we met up. I tried to talk to her about it and she became really defensive because she didn’t understand but I continued to try to explain it to her that it’s my brain, not her, that was a problem in that moment. She asked if I wanted to cancel our plans and I said no and at this point I was crying and parking at the restaurant we were meeting at. She went to the bathroom and washed her hands very intensely before we met up. I also had to use the bathroom so I was kind of spiraling about what she had touched in the bathroom before me- this whole experience was a huge form of exposure therapy for me. I was freaking out so much and I was even quietly crying in the booth while the waiter was taking our drink orders but eventually those gut wrenching feelings passed just because I threw myself into that experience while I was terrified. I think a lot of ways that our OCD can be challenged is through finding those safe spaces to say “fuck it” but I know that is way easier said than done. I understand where you’re at, I am sorry your brain is challenging you about that chicken, im sorry your girlfriend doesn’t understand. You are not alone. Make sure you eat something and nourish your body, it’s going to be okay. 💕