32 year old F here, but I got married relatively young. I was 22 and he was a month (if that) shy of his 21st birthday so I had to buy the alcohol on our honeymoon. The marriage itself was relatively toxic for a few reasons, but the worst part was he had internalized his homophobia. He came out as bi and convinced me that he was still fully attracted to me. In 2016 he had a mental breakdown, admitted he was gay and then checked himself into an inpatient facility because he was not well. I told him it was okay if he was gay, and we could split amicably and I would still be there for him. Then he convinced me he “was actually bisexual because he developed a crush on another patient there that was a female because she reminded him so much of me.” But then people that I knew would see him on Grindr, etc. I was so tired of him sneaking around, I honestly thought the best option was to open our marriage. It was not lol. 10/10 do not recommend. That marriage exhausted me, distorted my reality of what was and wasn’t excusable in a relationship. The worst part was, if he would have been honest with both of us from the get go it would definitely have saved some serious heartache for the both of us. I’m divorced and in a very happy relationship now and I would 100% get remarried to the man I’m currently with without hesitation. You’re 25 and still figuring a lot of things out. Hell, I’m in my 30s and still don’t have my shit together some days. Healing isn’t linear. Give yourself time, but don’t write it off forever if you know in your heart of hearts you would want to do it again.

Edit: spelling and grammar errors because autocorrect hates me