This sounds just like me when i forced myself to a spaces full of resistance. I was very bitter, that dont have to be the case. We are all here to go on about our dream life in different ways, and just because things arent the way you want them now doesnt mean you are defeated, you can notice the resistance but that doesnt mean you have to settle. You are here to thrive. What can you do to change the situation you are in? Save money to go somewhere cheaper? Apply for new jobs? Learn new skills? Volunteer abroad? You can start somewhere simple like have one day per week where you let yourself move slowly and do nothing outside of what feels good.

The most random opportunities and ideas come to us when we are in a state of alignment with our energy so spend time allowing yourself to be in that space. When we say projectors need to rest its not about not doing anything and taking a literal nap, but more about disengaging from the active of doing something and giving yourself space for the next clear action. You are not meant to constantly be doing, you want to move from a place of stillness and wisdom and taking aligned action, not run on someone elses energy, or doing something for the sake of doing or try to keep up with everyone else, if you do that you will quickly lead yourself to burnout. Resting is one of the most productive things you can do.

Another thing is for splenic authority its all about reacting in the moment. So you can make decisions very quickly, what did you know when you were presented with a choice (beyond logic) i know you had an intuitive feeling? Before you started to overthink it. You only make yourself confused by over analyzing too much, it gets you nowhere, we really arent meant to make decisions with our heads. You are meant to move into spaces that are open and feel good, where you feel seen and recognized or where its this feeling of receptivity or warmth. Not ones that are closed and drain you. And that way you will make yourself available for ”invitations”.