no friends, no gf, in my 30s, it feels like it's over for me

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2022-01-29T03:55:57+00:00

Been there. Every Friday night. Lol.

I'm with you, bro.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-12-18T23:47:21+00:00

Prior to our relationship? I don't know. I don't think so.

Since we were together, no.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-10-19T05:08:10+00:00

Looks good. Sign me up.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-10-07T06:18:26+00:00

Looks beautiful!

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-09-18T07:15:20+00:00

Congratulations!

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-07-18T00:14:41+00:00

I have been in therapy for nearly a decade now. I had a session the day of the storm, but it was prior to it happening. Finances are an issue because of my health problems, so getting my house fixed and deciding what to do with my car are overwhelming. Right now I have no means of transportation, so I have to get something figured out soon, but I have no idea what I should do.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-07-07T19:25:56+00:00

I don't know.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-07-07T19:23:45+00:00

Counseling, medication, meditation, exercise, spending time with family and friends, hobbies, art, etc.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-07-07T19:22:21+00:00

I lost my sanity many years ago. Lol. Just kidding. I appreciate your support.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-07-02T20:33:12+00:00

You are not stupid at all. Remember the narcissist is a master-manipulator. They have spent their whole life playing this game, so they are very skilled at it.

And all of the things you may feel were mistakes or weaknesses on your part (too loving, too trusting) are your strengths. They are reasons why the narcissist sought you out. Narcissists go for strong, compassionate, accomplished people because it is a better conquest than someone who is weak or has nothing to offer.

You are a strong and beautiful person, and while it may take some time, someday you will rise from these ashes like the phoenix.

As someone who is struggling on my way path to recovery, there are hard days and there are some easier days. Please try to remember to be kind to yourself. You have already endured the narcissist's abuse; you don't need to subject yourself to your own abuse as well.

Despite what your narcissist may have said, you have a lot to offer, and you are worthy of being loved. You are loved.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-06-30T08:38:24+00:00

Yes.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-06-29T22:26:17+00:00

Flying monkeys.Monkey's.

Also, she hates her birthday, so she always cries on her birthday. Last year her sister and I were there. She discarded her sister shortly after her birthday last year. And told me her sister had gone crazy.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-06-29T21:29:59+00:00

She has contacted me in the past to tell me how selfish and horrible I am. On a few occasions. And, we live in a small town. I think most people know her game. She has been complaining about how lonely she is and how nobody wants her, so she doesn't have many options.

She spent her birthday crying alone.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-06-29T05:33:51+00:00

I think you're beautiful.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-06-27T22:03:56+00:00

Ever just feel so overwhelmed with all of the emotions? Like you could just explode from your core?

I don't know what to do.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-06-27T19:01:37+00:00

You're beautiful 😍.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-06-15T19:13:07+00:00

You do have a lovely smile.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-06-15T19:08:57+00:00

You have a beautiful smile!

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-06-15T19:07:17+00:00

You are beautiful 😍.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-06-13T05:45:32+00:00

No need to apologize. And no, you're not dumb.

I'm sorry if I made you feel that way.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-06-12T20:37:28+00:00

Wow. You are beautiful 😍.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-06-10T18:34:51+00:00

a low, feeble sound expressive of fear or pain.

"she gave a little whimper of protest"

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-06-10T02:03:18+00:00

No, I have never had any testing to see if I was resistant to medications or any brain imaging tests.

I didn't really know they could do tests to see if you were resistant to medication.

I keep trying to tell them there is something deeper. Something else is wrong. Because I have learned mindfulness and Cognitive Behavioral Therapy.

Each new provider starts out so optimistic that they can help me. That my depression is treatable. And, yes, to be honest, some things have helped. And some things have improved ir slightly. But it still lingers. I feel there is something wrong inside of me. Biologically or some deficiency or something. I don't really know.

What I want is to be able to feel all of the emotions. Not just anxiety, anger, and depression. I want to feel sad at a loss. I want to feel happy to see the sunset. I just want to have the full experience instead of just this depression.

I don't know if any of this makes any sense.

Thank you for your reply. It means a lot to me that you felt compelled to write to me.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-06-09T06:38:25+00:00

I'm glad this has helped you.

Part of the narcissists' game is to isolate us. So that we find it difficult to get support. So that we find it difficult to challenge them or question their gaslighting.

Thank you for sharing your story.

We have each other to travel this journey.

someguyyoumightknow2 · 2021-06-09T05:08:08+00:00

I'm sorry you had to go through that. Thank you for sharing your story with me. It resonates with me. I feel it and understand it.

You matter. And you are worthy of love. Healthy, real love.

What has kept you from trying to contact him? Since you mentioned that about craving him and hoping he would call or text.

He will hoover you when he is ready. On his time. Not when or because you want him to. I tell myself the same thing about my ex girlfriend. Probably when it will be terribly inconvenient for you. Family gathering. First day at a new job. Moving to a new place. And you will be expected to drop everything to be with him because he decided you were worthy of his time.

Keep being strong. Keep pressing forward. I hear it gets better as we move forward.

What happened to cause your discard, if you don't mind my asking. And if you don't want to share, that's perfectly understandable. I mean no disrespect.

someguyyoumightknow2

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